starsinmydreams

2007-08-11T14:49:00.000+08:00

why dont you try actuallydo.livejournal.com ?

2007-07-25T19:49:00.000+08:00

i really want to lose that fats but whenever i see
those yummy munchies who could ever resist them.
i can i can, HAHA, maybe i can.
only when my life seems so tedious.
how many weeks have i not come online and i feel like deleting my blog.
yes i said it i feel like deleting thing. :D
i'm loving school but its sucking every drop of energy out of me.
i need alot of advice.

1) how to do maths, pass.
2) how to pay attention in class
3) how to get enough sleep.
4) how to stop having evil thoughts, HAHA.
5) how to make kerching without selling your bods.

HOW TO. HAIYO.

2007-07-08T14:43:00.000+08:00

okay many many videos. BALALALA.

we smile baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack. YES SMILE BACK SHERYL! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!

and you take note the in the next few she hasn't stop scratching her ass.

vid to b.

2007-07-04T13:42:00.000+08:00

is karma all you can think of?
then maybe, its all coming back to you.

2007-06-24T02:19:00.001+08:00

If tomorrow never comes

Sometimes late at night,
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
"If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart?"

"If tomorrow never comes,
Will she know how much I loved her?
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one?
And if my time on earth were through,
And she must face the world without me,
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last?
If tomorrow never comes..."

Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself,
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of,
If tomorrow never comes...

-The End-

(I know this song is REALLYYY old but its a really beautiful song after all,right?
and well baby,im really sorry for what happened today,that i almost lost you again but im telling you now that...
"If tomorrow never comes..don't worry,because you would have been the last on my mind."i love you,i really do..... )

<3 from mel.

2007-06-23T00:06:00.000+08:00

wont you spare me a little more time honey

2007-06-21T00:25:00.000+08:00

ya if only you gave me a chance to explain.
no instead you shut me off like this, twice.
since i already told you i dont want and dont have the money to go
does it seems all my fault again.
yes i know i am partly at fault but if making a
choice of what i want or dont wanna do
is a crime then everyone is guilty of it.
all i needed was a few minutes you tell you why
but you never gave it to me.
or should i go up to your house to just let you slap me?
if that is the way you really see this
then i guess it has been a really foggy seven years.

& i apologise.

2007-06-19T12:51:00.000+08:00

EUNYSEKWOKPEISHAN

1st. you really sounded like you wont make it for her birthday

2nd. how would i know and besides that you did make time to spend with his friends and all (not saying that its wrong).

3rd i already said that its not only about me, i know if its just me only i have nth to say, but the clique has also said they did ask you out and you did turn them down.

4th Normally when you call me it would be you waiting for yang and you had some free time with nth to do, thats why you would ask us right. because every time i would ask what are you doing there and you would say waiting for yang, am i not right.

5th i know you tried but i am just saying we really want you MORE in the clique.

6th i turned you down because i had already told my parents about the 17 and 18. besides that melissa did say that she would want to go sentosa and it was not confirmed. even if i could go, so many of the rest couldn't right. you cant put the whole blame on me because of the unsuccessful outing that i know you did put effort in planning.melissa did ask the clique to go out on the 17 but most of them couldnt make it. just like you said, i could have gone out to sentosa with the clique but the clique couldnt make it as well????? so whats the WHOLE CLIQUE when most of everyone couldnt go?

7th you took it the wrong way, the past is not as in the one that dont go out with us. in the past where there was so much neglects, as in there waas so much lesser time with us, this whole holiday(30 days). 95 percent of them, there werent us in it right.

in that message look at it again, it was a ? at the end. it wasnt a . there is a difference you know. the things you do are making me put the ? because i know you did make the effort to ask us out. its just not all about that.

anyways, i guess i was being too harsh because of the way you put it that you dont know if you want to spend time with us or your monthsary and it got me a little agitated.adding, it was rarely so many of the clique could go out together and we really wanted you there. Sorry that i hurt you but there should be really a reason why some of us are feeling this way towards you already.really, if it was just me, i would admit that i am the too demanding one, but its not.

i told you so many things at one shot because i dont want to keep quiet and slowly you drift from the clique so before anything happen just yet we just need you to know.

still, i dont wish for any misunderstanding/quarrels/unhapiness.
just need you to know that we dont want you to drift from us.
and i think the main reason for this misunderstaning is that
the clique just misses you.

2007-05-31T19:23:00.000+08:00

the four walls are making me suffer from a sick headache.

2007-05-30T18:43:00.000+08:00

okay lack of updates on my blog and i am sick of this skin.
holidays are in and many plans are on the way.
dates with kendra please, always dragged la.
reborned hair, and that is almost about it for this holiday.
oh and caught shrek 3, its OKAY LA.
not something i would watch again? okay thats bad.
but its okay, just wont watch it again.
next in line is pirate but have to wait.

ARSHU & SZEMIN ARE BOTH GONE/
COME BACK SAFELY. :D

i am dying at home.

say hello to nicki's new pet.
RALVIN+NICKI = RALKI !!
i am sure they will be great mama and papa.

2007-05-18T20:44:00.000+08:00

i wanted to post up many many photos
but thanks to my com, i dont know why all the files
okay not all but some of the files are not transfered properly
and i already deleted them la wth.
but luckily some are not.
one photo was deleted and its deserie's photo.
i am like so sad ! my god. still eunyse one is saved.
haiya, pictures another day then.
i am so lazy and feeling pretty drained out already.
here i come, 14 hours of sleep :D

2007-05-17T00:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY :D

2007-05-12T17:17:00.000+08:00

days out with the fours are coming back.
and i feel it coming back more often :D three cheers.
library with them, study? yeah, this bit -
photos and charm's bday cake, nice okay.

love you bitches.

2007-05-08T22:22:00.000+08:00

170506-080506
356 days together.

and this is the end of our road. we officially broke up.
because i fell for another guy. i know it is not very
appropriate to tell the whole world.
but i need to let all of you guys who knew me, melissa.
that this relationship broken and gone, bcos of me.
yes, i know i may/will regret what i have done.
making her cry, going all those she need not have.
still, there are many other reasons why.

this path hasnt been a walk in the park.
everything happens for a reason.
and the reason why i woulden wanna patch back
is because i dont know how to get out of this already.
i cant, and i wont allow myself to lie to you anymore.
i walked away, i asked for the break.
yes, and i know i'm giving up on someone who loves me alot.
letting you go, i know i will never find another person who
will love me as much as you did, treat me the way you did.
cared fr me the way you did.
you deserve someone much better.
i hang your calls, break my promises and breaking you.
destroyed yourlife and took away everything.
everything that was so important to you.
i became your everything but i took away from you again.
ervything that you have given me, nobdy will give the same.
all the promises i made, i am sorry i broke them.
that promise that i made, spending forever with you.
i am sorry i broke it, i broke them all.taking away all your trust
but trust me i never once saw the day we would grow apart.
zavier and zanyer are gone too i guess.
i never wanna be the reason of your sleepless nights anymore.
sorry just isnt enough to repay all that you've done.
moment o folly, you may say.
i dont know, cause it doesnt matter.
takecare, my friend

and never look back

2007-05-04T22:26:00.000+08:00

i changed my skin like finally and then i finally blogged and i know that my blog is very very dead. oh wells, there is just something i wanna post up.
enjoy nicole soon (: ya la ya la, fuck me la.

2007-04-28T21:01:00.000+08:00

girl, you aint by my side now.
but theres so many things i wish to say to you.
those 3 words,are they enough for you?
all ive done for you,all the time we spent together,do you see it the way i do?
i tell myself time and time again that im your perfect one,
but never once was i convinced.
i love you,my one and only.

its not that i dont trust you darl,i just wanna hear you say how much you love me,cause maybe then,i'll feel like the perfect one for you.

2007-04-26T20:22:00.000+08:00

hello there, its me here, not baby.she blogged a while ago and she wants me to say this on her behalf, "sorry if my post has hurt anyone, i didn't mean it in that way and if you think its hurting, DONT read it.and i wasn't pinpointing anyone."

okay,thats what baby had to say.hmmm...

ANYWAY,
all i gotta say is..

kiss my ass,
eat my shit,
its all in the heart,
so it doesnt mean you dont feel it.

p.s. : go figure out.

SORRY IF I AINT YOUR MR.NICE.GUY.

2007-04-26T20:08:00.000+08:00

and this is the definition of bitching.
everyone bitches, its just whether you're open about it
or you wanna be mr nice guy there.

AND I DO ADMIT I BITCH, OKAY :D

bitch

verb

Informal

Slang

See

2007-04-23T19:32:00.000+08:00

to amanda in case you didnt know.

well amanda, i know you did say sorry to me. and i ignored you, and you know till this point I am still f pissed off. okay, you may call it petty, but no. if you hadnt denied the fact that you did too. you know i could always sell you out, you know why i didnt? because i KNOW that it woulden help much in this clique. and till this point, i still do not think you are being a nice friend to tell her whatever shits okay. AND the thing is that you hadnt included yourself?!?! in the people you mentioned to her, okay now it do sounds a little funny dont it? trying to be all so nice friend you are when you did chitty chatty behind her as well? and dare still deny the fact? oh god, it sounds VERY wrong as a matter of fact. and yes, you told her not to say anything BECAUSE you know whatever truth would be found out, okay i'm not trying to be any CSI whatsoever, but putting the picture up in case you cant see. look in the mirror amanda, the person standing in front of you isnt all so innocent and nice. this is KC, this is secondary school life. if you wanna be a nice friend, go back to kindergarten one or two, nursery if you may wish. its like this amanda, trust me, we know EVERYONE bitches, even about me yes, cause nobody is flawless, NOBODY.the worst thing somebody in kc would do is to act oh so nice and tells off somebody's secret/bitching, well, you just did so. say you dont care if somebody bitched about you, then why the f did you even think crystal would wanna know so badly. WHEN FUCKING JOLLY WELL KNOW THAT THEIR TERMS ARENT GOOD. oh thats a stupid move. just learn to shut up sometimes, and that sometimes would make you a really good and NICE friend, really man.". Some people just has no life & think that everything will go their way & everyone will give in to them, But seriously, YOU'RE WRONG."no life? amanda amanda, this is life. bitching is life, it is at least part of it.dont DONT amanda DONT say you didnt bitch/ & whoever thinks everyone will give in to them? "I don't give a damn. Hate me all you people want. I can't be bothered. & if this is gonna spoil your day, Sorry okay? & if this is also gonna affect our friendships, I have something to say, if our friendships are gonna be broken because of this little conflict, I don't know what kind of friendship this is." and to this whole chunk of paragraph you said there, well, it doesnt make any sense at all. you are just contradicting yourself. if you really didnt care, whats the point of saying sorry? well till here i can say whatever this "friendship" is, time will tell.

so now amanda, were you part of the bitchings?
because if i can remember correctly, you openly told eunyse that you didnt bitch AT ALL.
really?? well i can show you the conversation if you wish or i can put it up here and put your post next to it because then everyone can see what ironic things you had said.

instead of opening your mouth to say sorry now, you should have just shush in the first place.

2007-04-22T19:21:00.000+08:00

i just hope i made your birthday special baby.

aint no rich kid nor have superpowers ,
but i really wanna be that one you need.

2007-04-19T19:25:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here
YAY I STOLE IT FROM DESERIE.
WOO ITS VERY FUN OKAY, OKAY I FEEL LAME-OH. (:

2007-04-11T22:44:00.000+08:00

hello all,its not ju here sadly.well,i just wanna dedicate this song to my babygirl cause the lyrics are really really meaningful and i want all you guys to feel it as well, so...ENJOY!

"I Wanna Be Your Man (forever)" by Keith Urban
You're such a pretty little thing
I wanna put a wedding ring on your finger
Baby can't you see that we were meant to be together
Yeah the joining of our hearts is written in the stars
We've got a love made in heaven
So baby take my hand I wanna be your man forever

Well I can't think of anyone else it's true
All day long there's no one on my mind but you
And I have loved you since you were a little girl
You mean everything to me and you're all I'll ever need in this world

Every time I look into your eyes
I see the one I want beside me for eternity
You could make me the happiest man alive
By setting up a date and taking my name for life

p.s:all i am saying is, i need you in my life,please dont ever leave me honey.

2007-04-11T20:12:00.000+08:00

and so that day we went to eat sakae yum yum !
hahaha. kendra&sandra are both greedy pigs.
esp kendyrah. just look at her happy face after she eats.

many many=shiok=FAT.

went pp again again.
its really a routine. woo cheesballs earn alot of $ from us.
suppose to do SS in sandra house today.

ps/ look at jolene!

but since i already guessed i would take cab from there
i stop myself from going, days of scrimping is here again!
went mos with barbie&ken instead. and started laughing at yrbook.

erhem, meryl camera shy? haha, no.

LIGHTS CAMERA ACTION! HAHA.

omg and this is geography life man.

pss/ look at sandra face :D

angela lost her pencil case and now she's depressed.

actually, its more chaotic then this , much more.

anyways was just browsing thru my photo bucket.
just look at what i found.
before
after.
FUCK. yay just look at the FATS on the f face.
haven even look back at the lower part yet. spell fucking fats man.

I LOVE BABY. DONT BE SILLY, I'LL NEVER LEAVE YOU

for you i will..

2007-04-09T20:52:00.000+08:00

hey there everybody.its me here,not ju.well this post is specially for my baby and i wish to melt her heart with this (so keep your fingers cross and hope my baby will be touched :] )

im looking forward to every tomorrow with you,
for it marks a new page in our journal.
sometimes things may get hard,and words can get harsh,
but at the end of the day,its fine as long as i know you are still the one im holding on to.
loving you is like part of me;
which means if i dont love you,
then i wont know who i'll even be.
baby,you took me on this journey,
and never gave up no matter how deep the cuts were.
all im saying is that i thank you for everything.
everytime i look back on the times i made you cry,
my tears just cant stop flowing.
i never wanna be who i was,
too afraid of letting you get hurt once again.
sweetheart,you are all to me and i really want you to know it.
this love cant survive without you or me,
and i hope that 70 years down the road,you will still be holding me,telling me how much you love me.
cause im telling you now that all i want is to spend the rest of my life with you.
thinking of the past,knowing how much we've been through,
baby,im really so proud and happy to tell others that we're still together..
and somehow,i think im gonna cry!! so i'll hurry end this post by saying

"HONEY,I LOVE YOU AND I HOPE YOU LOVE ME TOO!!" :]

2007-04-09T10:41:00.001+08:00

OKAYYYYYYYYYY, kendra's bbq.
and yada yada whatever happened.
oh wells, at least there was food??

and all those hot erhem erhem( i dont know what)
we needed drugs la please, everyone agrees.

the room was actually pitch dark and music was blasting. sexy la.

went to the airport yesterday with baby.
and baby promised to bring to me LA disneyland. YAY!

i just wished it was tmr or something. but maybe after the o's :D

EXCITED EXCITED ! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

NYWAYS, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERYL.
stop growing horizontally already! heh.

you're the first and last thing on my mind.
and every second in between, i wish you were right here with me.

2007-04-05T23:43:00.000+08:00

www.xanga.com/theperfect_scandal
WHAT I MEAN BY F BITCH/

2007-03-28T12:04:00.000+08:00

alright now, hard to believe but i miss school.
oh god, i wanna go back to school BADLY.
i miss everyone. eps baby.
and kendra's world is in singapore, let me elaborate.

according to kendra tan:

this is london

this is great wall of china

this is hawaii

this is big foot

this is pulau ubin

this is harry potter

see what great imaginations she have.
i wanna be all well again. no cough no fever ):
i wanna see baby )):

2007-03-25T18:00:00.000+08:00

do you know what it means when i say i miss you?

2007-03-20T20:40:00.000+08:00

hello there once again.im not juliana for your information.
anyway,baby wants me to post for her and here i am.(im not saying that i mind blogging hon!)
well,the post is mostly just what i've got to say to my baby so i hope you readers dont mind :]

baby,im sorry for that quarrel today.
the tears,the ignorance,the anger.
they weren't necessary.
im glad that its all good now and i really wish that we wont quarrel so much.
i didnt mean to make you cry nor did i want you to feel that im letting you go.
cause im telling you and everyone reading this that im NOT.not at all.
it may be hard during the times of quarrel but letting you go is even harder.
see the way i get so worried when you dont pick up my calls?know why baby?cause im so afraid to lose you,to not hear your voice anymore.
no one can take your place baby.
these 3 words "i love you" has always been true,straight from my heart.
babygirl,i want to hold on to this relationship forever.
and i hope you wont get tired of me one day.cause i know that i wont get tired of you.
once again.... i love you <3

cause i would give my whole world for you...anything you ask of me i'd do...

2007-03-20T20:15:00.000+08:00

kendras tans weis nengs
there were things you could have said or did that would
have made your situation a little less hurtful, but you didnt.
there were thing you did that made them a little worse.
nevertheless, you realized. maybe not in time, but its okay.
mistakes. just another chance that you need :D
dont worry anymore, you're still here, with us.
because, you still matter.<3

baby! i'm super sorry i wanted to blog &you know right!
but well, blogger is just shithole.
thought that counts right !
anyways, dont be angry anymore.
no more missing la kay.
i love love love love you fatty/

2007-03-18T18:39:00.000+08:00

i guess baby would be disappointed when she sees this.
damn i'm sorry okay baby? )':
still, i wanna say I LOVE YOU.

2007-03-16T23:22:00.000+08:00

hello all, it's me posting again.but this time,my baby hasn't got a clue.it's a surprise post.well.the reason is simple "HAPPY 10th MONTH BABY!" [: (start clapping your hands now)

its the way you look into my eyes that makes me fall deeper and deeper for you.
its how you smell that gets me so attracted to you.
its the way you tell me those sweet nothings that makes me can't help but to smile.
its the way you got this blank look on your face whenever you touch your ear that makes me feel like laughing at you. (not in a bad way baby)
its the way you hold my hand that tells me only your hand fits mine.
its the way you do those monkey faces that makes you so adorable.
its the way you sing on the phone (whether off tune or not) that makes my day brighter.
its the way you love me that let me know i can't let you go.
baby,all i wanna say is "i love you."

i love you for who you are baby.you say you're fat and ugly but to me you're the best already.i dont hope for anyone better than you.
in fact,it's me who isn't good enough for you.i ain't good looking,ain't charming,ain't rich,ain't smart and of course always the one making you upset.
if there's one i thing i'm "good" at, thats definitely being the one who loves you the most.
sweetheart,words can't express my love for you but i still wanna tell you how much you mean to me.and dont be silly,i wont let you go alright?i know anything can happen but still,i've got a welly welly good feeling that i'll never wanna lose you.i love you.

so i'll end this post by saying "i love you my one and only!!" [:

2007-03-15T19:47:00.000+08:00

hello there, i am helping my welly welly good girlfriend post today,THREE CHEERS! :]
baby,i love you so.please be over the moon when you see this cause ya
its my first time blogging.oh wells,here it goes..
these 9months wasnt easy nor was it by luck
hon cause everything that happened happened for a reason.
and im happy that im still with you.to friends out there
sorry if i put this welly welly good girlfriend of mine in front of you all
but heres what i gotta say
"She's my girlfriend for christ's sake!yeah,guess you might
think that im not a good friend whatsoever
(you know i cant control what you gotta say of me)
but all i know is friendship is something build within and can never be taken away
by someone else.im deeply sorry to you my friends and
please forgive me.i love my girl alot,you should know that by now."
so baby,im sorry for being such an ass last time
(guess many know how badly i treated her in the past)
so this is all that im making up to you
by loving you more each second.and thank you for always being there.
cant do without you sugar! (hoho,i really mean it okay)
well,goodbye HOMOsepians.
thank you for reading this post whether you liked it or not.
may you fellow HOMOsepians be happy everyday
with or without your other half :]. gotta run now,BYE!

2007-03-14T14:03:00.000+08:00

one week hols are in, but isnt it a little too short?
got back my results, 11th in class ! highest rank since sec 1 please.
going to parkway in a few minutes (:
and i had the weirdest dream today.
i was f pregnant and my stomach was hurting.
and i woke up knowing it was my cramps.
wow, thanks alot PREGNANT.
what a stupid way to begin my day, cramps.

TANNING PLEASE :/

2007-03-04T20:14:00.000+08:00

i'm totally not into blogging anymore...
nice day waginas.

ps/ suddenly it hits me.
you're gone and thats for sure.
everything you say, actions that says it all.
dont need to be heard, i felt it all.
its just impossible for you to come back anymore.
and this feels like crap.

2007-01-31T20:36:00.000+08:00

why?

because school is the same everyday.
because what we learn in school are f-ing boring.
because the teachers are a bunch of -i dont know what-
and because i'm 155 and nadene's 154 !
WTH MAN I SWEAR THIS IS SHIT.
CAUSE I'M MORE THEN F 1CM TALLER!
someone please tell mr lee, ahahhahahhas.

BUT BUT ON TOP OF THAT ARE MY FRIENDS
THAT MADE THEM ALL DISSAPEAR ! (three cheers !)
because the classmates are splendid, so much.
tests and CAs are coming, omg.
and i'm not gonna skip any more trnings :D
because i love you so; i'll never let you go.
&i just typed a a bunch of nonsense which i JUST backspaced.
just stay with me would you? i can do without you, my love.

2007-01-27T18:01:00.002+08:00

cause i fucking miss you ):

2007-01-27T17:08:00.000+08:00

i'm phoneless today. oh god dont even ask me why.
tomorrow's blading to be on i hope. i wanna i wanna!
and well yesterday, i've never felt so much off my chest.
the grudge and convicing myself that i detest.
i'm so so so so glad its finally told :D and now cleared.
take care my friend, and stay strong.

baby, this is especially for you.
there's so much to say, so much to be sorry and thankful for.
without those unnecessary quarrels we use to have, (:
although i know the road to come is gonna be pretty hard.
it aint gonna be easy. my dear i'll hold on to you.
i'll stick with you thru it all.
time to time, things will turn out bad.i know it will.
but your love just keeps me alive, it keeps me going.
i look back and see, how things were last time.
how we cried almost every night, how i could have given up.
how we kept holding each other back, how we'll run after each other.
i'm so proud we're still here baby. cause it seems like a miracle.
where you're here, just holding me in your arms.
just sharing this love.
and all we've been thru would be worth it
for a lifetime with you oh baby its worth it all.
when i told you to imagine we breaking up.
can you? cause baby i'm telling you i cant.
iloveyou

2007-01-25T20:46:00.000+08:00

ehhhh, dont put words into pple's mouth okay.
just wanna leave cause you're EXTRA( obviously you are la)
hahahahaha * points finger at you and laugh*
oh please,so where's your clique now?
have to look for old flames eh.
pathetic pathetic fucked up shit.
you're below the dirts man.
you're not two faced you know, its a thousand faces.
not even a single bit embarrassed my goodness.
and oh yes in case you didnt know.
i AM talking about you MERYL CHEN :D
( and i know you're gonna read this cause you got no f life)
so what ya gonna do, go complain to lovelove stead or cliqueclique?
HAHAHHAHHAA, HILARIOUS LIFE MAN.

come on i know you guys are laughing now cause you all always wanted to do this and i'm doing this on behalf of half of the world who hates you and for the other half who goes gaga over this baboon, well too bad then. continue gaga-ing over her, good luck k. cause you'll only make her think she's f handsome whatver shit which she's totally not.
please, somebody, tell her :DDDDDDDDDD

2007-01-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

" today is emo day, i am so emo.
tmr also emo this week, emo week"
HAHAHHAA, screw you motherfuckers. bla bla bla.
screw screw, go be carpenter lah. wanna screw everybody.
(if you get this, good for you! if you dont, dont be afraid to ask me:D)

2007-01-21T21:19:00.000+08:00

omgzxzz. i changed my template yesterday and this stupid bastard just closed the whole thing .
so yeah, now its up and done again!
i hope its nice, i have no idea.
went suntec alone alone today !
hahaa, got many stuffs though. (HAPPY)
then after that went east coast with eunyse. rollerblading !
SZEMIN LAH SHE IDIOTY IDIOTY IDIOTY.
it was funnyyyyyyyyyy, kept on screaming like idiot.
and eunyse got scolded " fucking cheebye" form this uncle!
i was practically pointing at her and laugh already that kind.
then after that went over to pp to meet arshu and nicole.
sit here there, ate and stuff. i miss-ed them okay.
then home i go :D

baby, i'm sorry i kept making you angry today.
its a blessing how you'll always be so patient with me.
i love you hon, i'm sorry for being so..... bitch.
i'll be better :/
four days without you, make sure my hugs
and kisses are coming as promised okay.
i want them! or punishment eh? you know what hor. :P
i miss you fucking much, tmr faster come !!

2007-01-13T20:58:00.000+08:00

met MY LITTLE BOY today ! (: went to converse and
carrefour to get the things.
pretty much nth happened today.
but it was enough to make me happy cause
you were with me. saw pretty pretty shoes !
and this cute boy who runs around like a drunkard.
so cute lah okay.

i hate you you you you you AND YOU.
OMG I SO HATE YOU/ WHATEVER.

2007-01-10T18:11:00.000+08:00

i'm starting and learning to love 3/3.
okay, i am trying la at least.
and two weeks of school is just so so tiring.
the lack f sleep is the worst !
i swear almost every lesson i'll be doing my own things.
" STILL GOT TIME LAH" but always, regret.
body aches everywhere. how great.

i'll go and study my, maths geog chem bio lit now/
yeah, i wish i would :Dnot everyone think like you do. dont exp

2007-01-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

2006 could never get better.
although many problems and nonsense.
ending the year with baby was just the right-est thing.
first time baby spend christmas and new years eve
without her family and with me (:
actually considered still with family right right? heh.
ni yi jing yao yang wo le. and no baby, stop saying you're my atm.
although i know you keep spending money on me :D

yesterday was heck at first.
never will i ever thought it'll all go my way eh?
all those shitfucks i went thru wasnt for nth.
and so we went to meet sandra jo and iona at junction 8!
for being oh so stupid i thought it was at jurong east.
heng b was with me or we'll end up dont know where already.
Went to eat pastamania. i hated what i was wearing and i know
i was being all so annoying cause i kept whining to baby on how bad
i wanna buy a skirt to change into.
went clarke quay without jo after that.
sat at hooters and its never ever boring bitching about HER :D
it was hot-ness, never thought pple would dislike her too eh.
hehe, too bad if she's just so hate-able.
and fuck i did spill one whole cup of root beer all over my skirt.
god damn it it felt so sticky okay.
the counting down YAY and spray and run !
i would say over there seemed so much better then town or durian
at least itss not filled with smelly blacks who will touch touch you
and ruin the whole festive mood and yes i am racist against them
cause they'll stare at you with those seh pek pek look.
so you cant blame me seriously, tell me who will like LOVE them?
maybe some Indonesia or Philippines maid la.
still we ended up smelling like them cause the spray thing is so smelly.
but it sure was hell fun. got the glimpse of fireworks eh !
left close to two and walked all the way to bugis to find cab.
still gotta book a taxi and went to sandra's house.
ORDERED MACS ! :) heh.

woke up the next morning and the first person i see is baby.
well, it was awesomely perfect when there was a kiss just
right before i fell asleep and right after i wake up.
ate home delivery again pizzahut+kfc woohoo!
played mahjong and sandra's kee siao time came.
she laughed at practically nth. okay maybe it was something lame like
i swear by the moon and the stars i'll be there, in the sky.
soon went home. made iona wait for cab herself.
super bad please. i shall say sorry to make myself feel better.
SORRY IONA CHAN SOMETHING SOMETHING (:

well, 2006 ended well cause i got to snuggle up to baby.
and i want many more nights to be like this.
2007 is just gonna be better arent it?

its how i'll want to spend the whole year with you b.
promise there will be no more insecurities.
and i know i keep breaking my promises.
know when sometimes i dont tell you stuff b?
cause i dont wanna risk losing you or getting into any arguments.
but i've learn that you'l wanna know.
i'll tell you, i've tried very hard to change my thinking
and i do believe i did (:
2007 gonna be filled with your love, baby promise me.
and i promise you mine sweet.
cause we have a lifetime more to go i'll never take you for granted.
the future is waiting for us baby, and i'm gonna hold on to you tightly.
its impossible for us to go on smoothly thru the whole year i know.
but when problems come crashing, i know i need not worry.
cause we've locked our hearts together and the key is thrown
into the deep blue ocean. we'll never need it, we'll never need to be apart.
ni shi wo de quan bu, wo bu neng lose ni.
wo LOVE ni baby :D
YONG YUAN DE AI ZHE NI YI GE.

SHOUT OUT BACK TO BESTIE !
i'm sorry for times i coulden be there.
to know that you arent happy and still i cant cheer you up
or listen to you rant. and i want to.
2007 marks a new beginning to this okay?
put trust in this cause you know nobody can steal this bond.
although we seem all far and distant, it doesnt matter.
cause you know your heart is just an inch away from mine.
i love you bestie, and always will be okay ? (:
stay happy and out of those nonsense-tical thoughts!

it's how i wanna spend my forever with you sugar love.

2006-12-30T01:14:00.000+08:00

i've been missing out on pple alot.
i miss so many pple ):
and its fucked up staying at home.
doing the same things, it give me a headache.
these few days haven been feeling good )):
its how scared i feel when in the middle of the night
i feel so alone. feels like the whole world moving on,without me.
haven been seeing baby for 48 hours ):
the distance is killing me, seriously.
sighs, guess i'm thinking too much on my part.

i miss you.
its driving me nuts.

2006-12-17T22:00:00.000+08:00

WHEN HOPE SEEMED SO FRAIL
AND ITS JUST KINDA IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO SEE YOU.
YOU APPEAR RIGHT THERE IN FRONT OF ME (:
AS AGAIN, YOU MADE THE 17 THE SPECIAL-EST DAY.

with two roses honey stars apple pie and milky bar.
drenched in the rain, all wet.
just to make sure 17 woulden be just another day.
oh baby, it would be a perfect picture if i would have
run up to you and hugged you tightly.
but the surprise was so big, it wasnt a single bit expected.
i was stunned baby, but i hope all the hugs after
that was enough to make it up to you.
i wanna thank you, for all those surprises you never fail to give.
it certainly warmed my heart on such a cold day :D
i love you baby.

2006-12-17T00:01:00.000+08:00

Happy seventh month baby!

Its kinda long eh? Come to think of it. We’ve been through the bad times, the downhill-s but im glad you’re still here with me. I always tell myself not to take all these for granted cause im scared I’ll lose one day. I cherish you, and your mood is my mood. Your everything is my everything. Going through all these reminds me of how lucky I am to have you. No matter how much I broke your heart or made you cry, you still stuck with me. I know, I can be very annoying at times, get on your nerves or even very long-winded but i love you and that’s for sure. If you dont want me to do something, I wont. Cause your happiness is my happiness, and I wish that I could be the one that you’d give your everything to. I really wanna be with you forever, I cant lose you baby..

My one and only, you..

Oh babygirl
From that very moment you came into my world,
You made it your very own,
Eating me to my very bone.

Oh babygirl,
You take away my breath when you’re near,
And with you I have no fear,
Cause theres no need to shed a tear.

Oh babygirl,
Tell me you’ll never leave me,
Cause I wont know what I’ll be.
You took me on this journey
And swore not to set me free.

Oh babygirl,
You are my baby,
My one and only..
You.

我爱你

FROM BABY TO ME (:

COME ON TELL ME WHOSE IS SWEETER, MINE RIGHT? HEH :D

2006-12-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

SEVEN MONTH AND A LIFETIME MORE TO GO(:

though its been tough and all this we've been thru isnt perfect.
times of giving up and silly words.
quarrels and heart breaks.
the sorrys and guilts.
the cryings and misunderstandings.
the talks and compromise.
the problems we've faced.
its how we'll get thru them.
the sleepless nights on the phone
with you that always ends up with tears.
and how we'll make it up at the end.
still ended with a smile and laughter.
these are all that brought us to who and where we are now.
it may be just seven months.
but i know i've grown to depend on you.
to know that you'll be there no matter what.
its what pushing me forward. giving me a reason to move for tmr.
i know i'm not good with words baby, but i'll try my best.

without those imperfections.
we woulden be so strong.
the we that can overcome everything.
cause we've been thru so much baby, so much.
all that heart breaks just doesnt really matter anymore.
its how we've grown to be so comfortable with each other.
the way i love you to be around me 24/7.

the feeling i've had in my heart.
it cannot be described.
its when all else fails, i wanna be the one to bring you up again.
when i wanna be there when you cry.
at least i know when you're all fine again.
to hug you tightly in my arms and make you feel secured.
and i wanna hear your crazy laughter cause it warms my heart.
to be with you and doing the sillest things
no matter how many stares we've got from passerbys
which really are countless.
cause we'll always be making the most noise.
being with you ,its when i see perfection in life for once.

when seeing you everyday become like a must in life.
just like how everyone gotta breathe.
baby, its like how i gotta breathe to stay alive.
you're the air i need, the one i gotta hold on to.
a day without you just isnt right anymore.
and if ever the day you're no longer by my side hon.
its the day i've stop breathing.

with all those imperfections baby.
there's still something that'll always remain perfect.
thats us.

2006-12-14T00:33:00.000+08:00

I LIKE SZEMIN ALOT
I LIKE BESTIE ALOT
I LIKE ANGELA ALOT
I LIKE SANDRA ALOT
I LIKE EUNYSE ALOT
I LIKE KENDRA ALOT
I LIKE PRISCILIA ALOT
I LIKE DOOF ALOT
I LIKE AMANDA ALOT
I LIKE DESERIE ALOT

BUT I LOVE YOU BABY.

2006-12-14T00:14:00.000+08:00

bb, these few days are really love.
spending every minute and second with you
of my life is the greatest joy i've ever had.
even the most silly things we do.
laughing at the wrong time.
telling you stuff i'll never feel comfortable telling anyone else.
i feel like you're my life baby.
someone i can tell every single thing to.
the comfort i feel when you're around me.
the way you secure me with your warm arms.
no matter where i am, as long as i'm with you
i know i'm the complete me, i know i'm secured.

looking back at those rough times we've been thru.
it reminded me of how much effort and tears we've put in.
to get to where we are now.
its difficult i know. but its the love we shared thats keeping us
strong honey. pple may think being the same gender is never gonna last.
baby i'm proving them wrong, wait, we are.
cause it doesnt matter, as long as i know this love is true.
everyday's filled with you, and i never want this routine to stop.
it'll continue on like this forever. even i it means taking away my
everything. just not you my love.
i'll understand you like no one else will.
trust me baby, i will.
one day, i'll be able to read your mind.
thats how close i wanna be to you baby.

i know all these seems like sweet nothings.
but these words arent nothings.
they speak my heart.

my love, there will be no one that will love you as much as i do.
i'll prove it to you (: give me till forever.

2006-12-09T20:42:00.000+08:00

yesterday yesterday.
went out for a new haircut !
and then to steamboat.
no more crabs this time.
and i think they gave us alot of dead prawns.
thats why there arent many many jumpings.
not as much as last time (:
yesterday
went out with baby.
angela's house dye hair then
town then the party.
and and finally took neos.
hoho! after six months eh?
i bet baby's not camera shy
thats why lahhhhhhhhhhh, heh.
i love you.
today
went tm ! and watched movie.
neos again? this is hilarious lah.
angela; goddbye my lover.
should see her man.
you'll laaugh your ass off.
dejavu is nice, go watch it !
baby was practically sleeping thru the whole movie.
and i felt like kidnapping her home.

baby
i will never let you fall
i'll stand by you forever
i'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven
you know i'll give anything.
as long as the smile on your face stays.
give anything and everything up for you
cause i know my love, it's worth it all.
i'll never let you go.
never gonna give you up baby.
cause i know there arent gonna be another you.
you're this special baby, i love you.

2006-12-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

DIDNT GO WORK TODAY!
I MET BABY FOR BREAKFAST AND WE
JUST DECIDED NOT TO GO FOR WORK TODAY.
I'M SORRY SZEMIN FOR NOT TELLING YOU.
AND ALMOST MADE YOU BUY LUNCH !

THEN ME AND BABY JUST WENT AROUND WLKING.
AND BACK TO TIMEZONE. GUESS WHAT?
JUST AT THAT ARCADE, WE CAN LIKE SPEND $22.
I FEEL SO, I DONT KNOW.
HAHAHHA, BUT IT WAS ALL FUN :D

AFTER THAT WENT SANDRA'S HOUSE.
JOLENE CAME TOO .
MADE MARCORONI CHEESE.
IT WAS NICE LAH OKAY.
ITS JUST WE CAN TALK FOR SO LONG EH?
HAHAHHA. TIME PASSES LIKE SO FAST.
BUT WHEN WE'RE AT WORK.
ITS TOTALLY DIFFERENT STORY MAN.

AND THEN CABBED HOME.

I LOVE YOU BABY.
I'M YOURS AND YOU'RE MINE.

Wandering like a leaf upon the wind
I have been searching for someone
Holding out for a love to shake my soul
Heaven or nothing
Then you walked into my life
In a blaze of light
I've never wanted someone more
You are the one I've waited for

Light of my life
You are the fire in my heart
When I am lost
I know I'll feel you burning in the dark
You're the light of my life
Every star in the sky
Shines more brightly when you're at my side
You're the light of my life

Dreaming, I feel you next to me
No, I'm not, I'm not dreaming
'Cause I'm drowning in your kiss
I die in your arms
And when I hear you call my name
Baby, it's like I'm born again

Your love's a lantern in the rain
Bringing me home time and again
Burning like an eternal flame

Light of my life
You're the beat of my heart
When I am lost
When you're lost I know
You'll see me shining
Shining in the dark
You're the light of my life
Like the stars in the sky
Only you can take me through
You're the only one who makes it right
Only you set fire to the night
You're the light of my life

WO AI NI.

I CANT BELIEVE WHAT I'M DOING.

2006-12-06T00:27:00.000+08:00

BABY THIS LOVE WILL NEVER DIE.
ITS MADE, TO KEEP US ALIVE.
MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER CHANGE.
MY HEART, WILL ALWAYS REMAIN.
THERE'S NO NEED TO WORRY.
CAUSE YOU KNOW, I LOVE YOU BABY.

and forever will be.

2006-12-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 200TH DAY BABY.

there's still eternity left to spend with me (:

2006-11-30T00:02:00.000+08:00

BABY, ITS TIME LIKE THIS.
I WANNA TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.
HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME.
I KNOW THE TIMES I JUST FELT LIKE CRYING.
THINKING OF HOW MUCH WE'VE WENT THRU.
TO GET TO HERE , IT WASNT EASY.
IT WAS TOUGH. TIRING.
I DONT DENY, THERE WERE TIMES WHEN I FELT
THAT I SHOULD GIVE EVERYTHING UP.
WHEN I FELT THAT I WAS WORN OUT.
BUT BABY YOU SEE, IT IS JUST ONE WORD FROM YOU.
THAT GAVE ME A REASON TO LIVE FOR.
A REASON WHY WE'VE BEEN THRU SO MUCH.
EVERY SECOND IN EXCHANGE IN WORTH EVERY SECOND WITH YOU.
EVERY TEAR THAT WAS SHED, ITS WORTH EVERY SMILE NOW.
IF I WERE GIVEN A CHOICE TO GO THRU THEM
AND BE HRE WITH YOU BABY.
I'LL GO THRUTHEM AGAIN.
CAUSE I KNOW IT'S ALL WORTH IT.
I'LL GIVE YOU MY EVRY INCH OF SOUL HON.

I LOVE YOU.

2006-11-27T23:17:00.000+08:00

baby, wo ai ni.

cant you see? we're meant to be.

2006-11-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

and another email from her !
omg, she's so fast in returning.
i think by the time of my five email.
my chinese hanyu pinyin will be A++++ :D

2006-11-25T01:36:00.000+08:00

and i got an email from zhouling!
awww, tell me you're jealous of me ! (:
awaiting the letters from them too !

2006-11-25T00:20:00.000+08:00

how many days haven i come on blogger/home?
yoshi everyday.
although its getting boring.
but i rather stick to now.
i do not like routines ! okay, maybe a little.
but i do admit i hate changes, heh :)
i mean, who does?
maybe for the better YES we all do/
but not the risk of getting everything screwed.

skip all the days i missed(my memory isnt that good)
lets just list them down in shorts.
.yoshi everyday
.met bestie,manda,des,eunsye+herotherhalf,chimene,ariane&san
.went badminton-ing!
.baby's surprise
.baby's house
.late night talks with love:D
(thats one of the reasons why i haven been blogging boohoo)
& many many other things which is not currently
coming out of my brains, so forget it.

today/
finally it was four of us again!
since like ever, the last time we went out together.
went marina square. and met charms love and amelia.
they were working there and we spend MOST of our time
playing/spoiling their toys. wtf i know, but its fun kay!
this doreamon(sp?) can fly high high !
and we broke the thing, ahahhas. its nicole, not us not us.
she's a complete idiot to controlling toys, i swear.
played with the car car too.
then went to yoshi to eat.
then take bus home, met baby(:
and i freaking missed a bus at kcp stop!
cause i was there smsing then i missed it.
i feel stupid, like seriously....

baby, the casual remark and words.
you made my day as usual.
the lollipop i never expected cause i just said
; i feel like eating a lollipop .
and you got one for me, just within that minute.
without me knowing.
you're the sweetest thing on earth hon.
i love you :D stay with me till the end.
i'll hold on tight cause no one will love me like you do.

PS/WORK STARTS ON MONDAY, CANT WAIT :D

2006-11-19T22:09:00.000+08:00

make this stay, dont let it slip away.
maybe its better to leave the past behind.
but maybe it's not.
give me time....

2006-11-19T20:47:00.000+08:00

48 hours without you.
its a living hell ):
it's making me insane baby.
wont you come closer?

didnt go anywhere for two days.
i'm like broke broke BROKE.
i need a freaking job man !
like really really soon, i need $$.

and JINGYEN called me today !
yes, the caixiang school one !
ahhahaha ! i was so shocked.
but happy at the same time, ha!
just why isit not zhoulin):
and she said she's writing letter to all of us.
but she's gonna just send it to my add.
SO ALL OF YOU TAKE IT FROM ME TWO WEEKS FROM NOW.
OR I SHALL BURN THEM.
REMEMBER TO ASK, OR TOO BAD FOR YOU (:
kidding! just ask me lah.

baby, sorry for being such a bitch.
making you worry all the time.
not replying your smses, i'm sorry.
i'm really really sorry.
i dont wanna make you worried anymore.
i promise i'll be better hon.
you're my everything baby, i cant afford to lose you...
i cant bear to make you sad, it breaks my heart sugar.
i love you.

ps/ eunyse.
you know you almost made me cry over the phone.
i really need you to think it over, what you've done and said.
was it really only my harshness?
make this friendship stay.. it depends all on you.

szemin says;
i wont let anyone ruin my friend's relationship.
whats more, my bestfriend's.
juliana's willing to forgive and it'll be your very last chance.

2006-11-17T23:51:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SIX MONTHS BABYLOVES.
you know nobody can replace you in my heart.
never ever ever.
and this love is going till forever.
i love you so much.
and this isnt a fairytale, this is true.
i'll give anything up just for you.
that is how much i love you!
Zavier&Zanyer Wong are gonna come true baby!
wo yong yuan de ai ni yi ge (:
the one and only one i'll love for life.

and and i missed all of you guys !
AND I GOT PRESENTS FOR YOU GUYS
crystal;kendra;pris;angela;doof;sandra!
and esp, BABY YOU !
but at least i'm back home now(:

sorry ken and pris for my harsh words that day.
but its really difficult for me to accept this kind of friend.
well, i dont even think she treats me as one.
if she did, she woulden do what she did. such a bitch!
shameless one.

031106 you shld know you whore.
dirty secrets that leaked, dont think i'm stupid.
you bitch, you deserve nobody. NOBODY.
die for all i carre, i tried and tried to forget.
to ignore and pretend and forgive and DECIEVE MYSELF.
thinking that maybe you will realise it one day.
to even think that you'll think abt how i will feel, its stupid.
you dont even care. not that tiniest bit.
but NOOOOOOOOOOOO, never will you wake up.
never will you stop your shameless thoughts.
you're not even shameful of what you did,SAID.
you shld wake up from this act of yours.
WAKE UP ! you try to hard girl, too hard.
you stupid bitch, you shld stop using pple.
doesnt mean they are nice you can climb all over thier head.
you... dont deserve any sympathy at all.
the way you talk and laughs and act cute
just makes me wanna puke.
dont say things that will make pple pity you.
cause i know your true colors, we know.

okay, i think its enough.
isit enough szemin? :D HAHAHHAH !
i dont think so! i have like a gazillion things to say.
but but, i dont think blogger will have enough space for me to type.
I LOVE SZEMIN! HAHA.

i'm suppose to blog about this!
6/11/06 1.27am! DESERIE IS NO LONGER AVAILABLE!
HAHA! YOU'RE GONNA LAST FOREVER!
AND AMANDA'S TOO YA! (:

went for like three movies in three days.
i wanna and need to spend more more time with baby!
cause i missed you like crazy, it drives me insane.
many dates and promises! no breaking them loves!

spend today with baby.
the whole whole day ! (:
it was loved cause ive got all your attention and love b!
i love you for eternity honey.
170506- forever.

this isnt just another fairytale, love.

ps/ i love lailin the monkey slave ! (: ALOT.
pss/ i love lailin the monkey ADVISOR !
tell me i'm nice please.
cause the monkey king promoted you !

2006-11-10T17:27:00.000+08:00

yo! the time in china is passing so slowly!
now, i'm in my buddy's house. blogging.
apparently, they cant go blogspot ! but can go blogger.
abit the what the hell, but yah.
haha. i miss baby !
if you ever pound upon this, i miss you i miss you !
so much.
okay, time to go.
i miss crystal bestie too !!
and the rest in singapore, i bet ya all miss me too.
(: take care all.

ps/ 5 more days to go! :D

2006-11-05T18:22:00.000+08:00

so much to say, so little time.
i'll miss all of you.
esp, baby )':

i love you baby.
please get well soon )':
my heart aches for you....

2006-11-04T14:24:00.000+08:00

just sitting by the phone.
sitting by the com.
waiting for a call.
i just need to be assured.

i'm losing myself.
i dont even know what i'm doing anymore.
i know, i'm weak.
but who can take all this, with one blow.
one hard blow.
and i'm down.

i lost myself.

2006-11-04T13:55:00.000+08:00

tell me what i can do.
to take the pain away, wipe those tears away.
how i wish i was joking.
how i wish i would wake up, and all this is just a dream.
take evrything from me, just clear this up god.
tell me what else i can do.
give up everything, just not this.
show me the glimpse of hope.
just teach me to stay strong.

make things right god, i'll do anything in exchange.
let anything fall upon me, just make this once right.

2006-11-04T13:36:00.000+08:00

i'll give you my life god.
just clear this mess away....

2006-11-04T11:59:00.000+08:00

everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up
everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up
everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up
everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up everythings fucked up

why?

2006-11-02T23:08:00.000+08:00

someone teach me what to do when everything
seems so fucked up suddenly.
why am i so weak inside ? ):

baby i need you here, badly.
to kiss away the troubles.
even a hug would mean the world to me now.
oh godddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.

2006-10-31T22:51:00.000+08:00

sandra house today (:
if was fun lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

mahjong-ed and laughed at ariane !
she's damn dumb i swear.
but cant blame her, she dont know how to play.
and and she threw out a mouse??? :D
and many many other <3 !
eps MON MON IS SO CUTE !
i swear he is damn cute.
and i have a temptation to kidnap him and bring him home!
zoo zoo zooo zooooooo !
finally got someone who wants to go zoo as badly as me !
cant wait cant wait man !!

so many things gonna happen.
3rd; results and shopping !
4th; packing !
5th; omg ! good bye ! (: SHANGHAI.

only 5 more days till china.
goodbye to all the bitches.
i feel so happy, leaving all those behind.
gonna have fun ! with baby and mm !
and lailin ! (: and all.
yessssssssssssss we fucking will.

things i'm looking forward to.
-shanghai !
-times with baby !!!!
-packing !
-shopping !!!
-and more shopping !
-work ! i wanna i wanna !
-ZOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!

oh please oh please god.
let all this happen (:

-oh baby we're meant to be-

2006-10-25T20:18:00.000+08:00

there's tstill this little love i feel.
so please, dont extinguish it.
although i know, i coulden treat you like i use to do.
but this part in me, i wish to hate you.
i dont want to, but... i want to.
just dont let me, please.
cause, friends dont do, what you do.
and all of all, i know i still treat you as a friend.
god, what am i talking about.....

baby.
its times when i'm down, and i'll think of you.
its times when i'm lost, you'll help me find myself.
its times when i'm sad, you'll pull me up again.
its times when i'm helpless, i know you're always there.
its times when i'm sick, and i know you care.
its times when i dont feel secure, you assured me over and over again.
its times when i'm crying, you wipe those tears away.
its times when everything seems wrong, you turn them right.
its times when i'm having fun, i'll want you to be there.
its times when i'm smiling, and its all because of you.
its times when i'm happy, i know you're the reason why.
its times when the night is cold, i can only think of you.
its times when i'm feeling lonely,u're the only one i wish to be here with me.
its times like these & many many more
that makes you ; the one for me.
i love you baby !

-eternity is our promise-

2006-10-23T12:59:00.000+08:00

stuck at home
with an eye that looks like it is bleeding from the inside.
damn, its horrible ): infected.
so much thanks to my sister who pass it to me.
but but, the good thing is.
her eyes swell ! and mine, didnt, phew.
or i'll look like a fucking toad, which she does now.

thousands of faces i miss):
especially baby's.
suddenly, i miss school!
i wanna go back !!
god! take this pain away!

i've never felt so lost before ):

2006-10-21T22:33:00.000+08:00

you know when there's times you feel like you've lost yourself?
when you feel that you need to go-somewhere/baby's arms.
yes, thats how i've been feeling like the whole day.
cause baby's not here! and i'm missing tons of pple.
especially baby.
damn

fuck this, fuck life.
i wanna go there, i wanna be in your arms baby.
you know how damn much i'm missing you?
it may seem all so stupid and ... i dont know.
but just these few hours, i cant stand it anymore.
i cant even tell you how much i miss you right now.
its so damn much, no words can express it.
i'm lost without you.
i'm nobody without your love.
without your hugs and kisses, there's nth left in me.
JUST THESE MANY HOURS! i cant live without you baby.

baby, you're the one i need to continue on living.
i need your love and attentions.
i know, times when i seemed selfish and just created problems.
tears that are shed, going thru them over and over again.
you assuring and being patience with me.
even if it was the same old thing that we've been thru before.
that's because i cannot afford to lose you baby, i cant.
i woulden know what to do, if you ever stop loving me.
if you ever stop giving me with your hugs and kisses.
filling me up with your love every single day.
you're my life, my everything.

i know this love is for real.
baby, you showed me whats true love.
you showed me how much i'll give to just be with you.

eternity is our promise.

there's no more u and i, its us.
you're the first and will be the LAST one i'll ever love so deeply.
this i promise you baby.
cause nobody can ever take yor place.
believe me when i say i'll love you forever.
"together we can overcome everything"
i know i'll never worry about you leaving me again.
we feels the same cause now, our hearts is one <3>
if you ask me would i cry if you die
i would say no
cause if you die
i'll die with you <3

ps/ dont say i never mention; I MISS CRYSTAL TAY BESTIE ! (:

2006-10-20T21:09:00.000+08:00

went parkway today !
i have no idea why, but i do sorta miss parkway.
with baby and mm (:
walked and walked, and it starts to be boring AGAIN.
oh man, ate and walk and walk and walk!

baby, i'm so sure about this love.
these few days are so love, i wish i could have stayed by you and
never never ever needed to go home.
to see you like that is fucking heart pain ):
i know, it may sound stupid.
but i do ): its so bad.
seeing you being so sick and ... sick... isnt nice.
); its just so, heart pain....
i really hope baby's gonna be well soon !
there's nth i woulden do, to keep you safe and loved.
wo ai ni (:

2006-10-20T01:37:00.000+08:00

two days not going to school.
and i guess the third tmr ! (:

these two days are so <3
i'll never give the times with you
up in exchange for anything else in the world baby. (:
spend my two days with baby baby baby the most.
though now baby is falling sick ):
i hope baby will get well soon ! YOU BETTER LISTEN TO ME AND DRINK WATER.
sighs, i really hope you're okay b.

no more ' uncle cheekopek' or i'll get angry(scared) (:
hahahahs, sorry baby, for making you feel so.....
bad/unloved/n WHATEVER YOU FELT LIKE THEN?
but i was really scared lah, i dont know why also.
maybe.... maybe my last life, i kena killed by some uncle cheekopek.
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS, so rubbish,whatever
more more photos! i know you want lah, dont act like as if so MIAN ZIANG.
and and i kneed(need) you !
baby we're getting more and more nonsense/LOVEEEEEEEE.
thats the way its suppose to be.
just laughters and happiness with each other around.
no more worries, no more tears, no more bad days.
most importantly, mo more feelings of insecurities.
cause now, you and i belong together , as one.
right right right? no one's gonna tear us apart.
NO ONE CAN (:
only pple whose mentality are so weak they do not
understand the meaning of being a complete slut/bitch/whore.
they will try to. but but, they just dont get it in their thick heads that they cant.

-its a promise that will stay baby-

2006-10-19T16:37:00.000+08:00

i read it over and over again
till i realised that actually
it isnt worth to give this friendship up because of her.
that fucking bitch is the whole cause of all these happening.
isnt she? yes.
why dont she get it, all that she's doing.
all those hypocritic acts, its coming to sense.
she shld die for all i care, hate me for all i care.
although i know she already does.(:
all this shits isnt worth it.
all these problems and hatred for each other is WHAT SHE WANTS!
her happiness is found in others misery.
know all the bungs, be the most popular one around them.
yeah, burnt bitch. cant you see? we're all laughing at you.
pathetic one.

pple do make mistakes.
my mistake to tell you.
your mistake to tell her.
it's time to learn from them(:

let it all go, it's back again.
i need to apologise too.
the one year back plans, i crash them.
i'm sorry you guys, though you keep saying its okay.
i know it isnt. just have fun over there okay?
i'm sorry i didnt attend your party, i should have.
i didnt know, it actually matters so much to you.

2006-10-17T23:52:00.000+08:00

if you think using all those under hand methods to get what you want
you will, you're fucking wrong.
if its not yours, leave it !
stop all this nonsense shit, just stop it.
if you're not tired, think about the pple arnd you ! they are !
so why cant you just get it in your fucking brain to STOP !
yes S-T-O-P !
destroying me OR this relationship isnt as easy as you think its gonna be.
no no player, its game over for you.

i love you baby ! happy fifth month baby.
and you promise that in 170510 we're still gonna be the us!
right right? (: yes.
and you said nth can take you away, that you promise!
<3 no breaking promises !!

2006-10-08T10:59:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to find baby.
i just hope i made your day love (:

today!
sunday with so much lesser haze polluting the air!
there's nth to blog about. but there's art to do!
and what, i haven even started on it yet man.

promise to not quarrel over stupid things.
i wanna/am going to be the first to say sorry!
ha, we'll see baby.
so much promises, that tie us closer together.
keep by them will you? i know i will love.

it's just so amazing how you can speak right to my heart
without saying a word, you can light up the dark
try as I may I can never explain that
what I hear when you don't say a thing
the smile on your face lets me know that you need me
there's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
the touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
all day long I can hear people talking out loud
but when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
try as they may they could never define
what's been said between your heart and mine <3

i wanna be the one that can bring back the smile across your face baby.
to extinguish that side of you that is always making you cry.
baby, that's what i wanna do. to be there for you, forever.

-this is forever 170506(:

p.s/ i miss you like a zillion ! its making me lose my mind baby.

2006-10-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE FINNALY FKING OVER !

aha, its such a bliss that when the rest of
the other students starts to stress and WE so relaxed!
bad point is, we stress earlier. (:

went movied after maths paper two.
watched stay alive!
its kinda scary lah. annoying part is
when the music comes and then NTH happens.
like wtfh man! ): make me scared for NTH.
after that, we skipped cinemas!
went into the world trade center one.
haha, wanted to go the john tucker must die.
but then the man was going backwards towards the door.
so me & baby hurry hurry run down the stairs!

went century(Sp?) for catching! FU-NNNNNNNNNN.
so exciting exciting! although me and baby sat down at the foodcourt.
drinking bundung then went we see them walk pass, we hide down.
damn funny man i swear!
after that, all go home ):

went to baby house and sat and stared at the moon.
one moment its there, the next gone.
i mean like, it seems so sad when it dissapeared.
i'm sorry baby, i made you worried again.
but i'm fine, just a little tired cause of my eyes.
well, i guess its over, doesnt matter anymore right.
(: i just need you to be happy.
cause when you smile, i'm happy.
when you frown, that smile just cannot appear.
no going back to the person you USED to be.
NO MORE, CAUSE I'M RIGHT HERE FOR YOU.<3 style="font-style: italic;">everlasting baby, us. i love you.

-There`s nothing else I want more than to feel this way-

2006-10-05T23:02:00.000+08:00

maths paper one was one hell of a shit.
i might as well pass up a empty script ! ):

went to east coast after that.
amazing right? tmr maths paper 2.
today already enjoy! hahahhahah!
who cares lah okay, 3/3 door open big big.

after that mm and me went to b house.
so hazy and foggy today! WTFH MAN!
stupid farmers burn burn burn.
later burn the whole indonesia down ah.
at six szemin left.

i wanted to leave at six forty five.
baby was so lethargic and lifeless.
so i wanted to leave and baby went even more moody):
then decided that i should really stay.
went walking round and into mandarin again. sat in the park.
just sat down at teh bench, so much love <3
baby was singing to me ! AHA (:
it made my day, lifted my mood.
and make my world seems oh so beautiful and perfect.
its always perfect with baby around with me.

baby, i'm sorry i wanted to leave.
i know its not me, i promise i'll tell you to be hapy.
instead of giving up straight away and thinking i shld leave.
as long as baby is happy, then i'll be.
i just love the way you talk, smile and every lil thing abt you.
whenever you's arnd
i know i can stare at you for hours thinking bout nth but you.
and baby sad to say but you know sometimes
when you are talking to me.
and i'm staring at you, i may not be paying
attention to whatever you're saying.
because i'm just thinking of how much you mean to me
and how much i love you.
i just need to see that love in your eyes
to brighthen my whole wide world.
you're like that star at night.
whenever it may seem dark and insecure.
baby you make sure i see the light and never fail
to bring that smile back across my face the way you always do.
even the slightest thing you do, the slightest thing you say
can change my whole day baby, no matter up or down.
that's how much you mean to me.
i know no one in this living earth can do the same you do.
cause no one matters more then you do baby.
whenever i'm in a bad mood or just feeling emo.
i just need your hug and embrace with love.
and i know everything would be just fine.
your mood affects mine, our hearts connects as one.
if you're asking do i love you this much baby, i do.

i want this to stay forever, tell me it will.

2006-10-03T21:37:00.000+08:00

i guess after all i'm still gonna fail my lit ):

went home straight away after school
i really didnt know why my mood was that bad.
was home, and feeling fucked moody.
then you said " i have a present for you, but i left it at the eleven floor."
so i went up and thought it was something you wrote the other day.
it was baby standing right there ! i was so happy, everything changed.
and my mood went from -100 to +100000000! (:
i was so shocked, but yet something in me wanted to cry.
cause you were to appear when i needed someone most.
it was... so loved <3.

went yoshi after that to meet angela and
doof and pris and szemin and crystal.
in the end, left me b angela pris and szemin.
we was at the jolli bean there! SAW COWDUNG!
hahah, that hot pink shirt, no clothes anymore, go shopping lahhh.
she inderictly said i got fatter okay ! okay lah, i admit i did.
but dont need be so mean right~ i feel fat again, and i know i am lah okay.
then nvm, after that saw WTFH HICHEW!
b was like; OH HICHEW EVEN MORE DIE !
*turn away and panick.
then me and kendra was like ; OH NO DIE RUN!
*all run and tries to hide but i think we bang alot of pple!
make it even more obvious man!
so we run run run ALL THE WAY to foodcourt.
b was saying, later hichew wanna go cold storage ahhh.
then then when we were outside cold storage....
*OH NO HICHEW AGAIN!! everybody rann like mad dog, except for kendra!
AHHA, i was like kendra run run run ! then she OHOHOH and run!
SO FUNNY MAN !
like play police and thief with teacher in pp like that.
filled my day with laughters once again (:

mei nu&shuai ge;
zavier wong junhao! zanyer wong pingrui!
szemin as the god-mama & nieghbour right!
BABY; plus take big! (: marry me =D

....live happily ever after.

2006-10-01T20:57:00.000+08:00

i dont see the point of WHY pple wanna suck up so much.
as a matter of fact, WHY?
to both seniors -and juniors- there's too much sucking up.
okay, you may say its being sociable and all.
but noooooooooooooooooo, its just NOT.
oh PLEASE lah, pple have eyes and ears.
its call sucking up! SUCK SUCK SUCK. shuuppppp~
i'm not pin pointing no one here, *erhem *ERHEM.
oh i sound so damn bloody mean, but WHO THE FUCKING HELL CARES.(:

having a date with the books i guess. AHA.

-take everything i own, just leave my love alone-

2006-09-29T22:56:00.000+08:00

what ever happened to the so called united class?
what so ever happens to friends who do really care.
well, there are. but some, i just saw through them.
you can feel it when they really do care, and when they dont.
selfish and self centered are really taking over pple's life.
maybe we do have to be selfish
maybe we do need to think about ourself instead of others.
maybe afterall, being mean isnt that bad....

i may seem okay with everything, but girl let me tell you now, i'm not.
so stop pushing it.

exams and exams are coming.
where's my brain? where where where?
not a little bit of urgency man.
i wanna pass my maths, thats the most important thing.
okay, put it this way, I NEED TO PASS!

baby, it may seem pple are trying to break us apart.
pple are hoping and wishing that we will fall out.
over their grave!
i know there are times when we seem a thousand miles away.
and only a cm rope is tying us together.
but dont they know this string is made of diamond? (:
nth's gonna break us up.
no matter how tired we are sometimes, we'll stay strong
as long as i am here for you and you are there for me baby.
AND EVEN AFTER SECONDARY SCHOOL!
(we're gonna prove your sister wrong ! )
believe me when i say i've never been so in love before.
this isnt a crush baby, this is love.
and its here i wanna say that i'll give anything to you.
even my life, take my breathe away.
just so that at the end of the day,
i can hear you say that you love me.

Te quiero

2006-09-28T00:33:00.000+08:00

out of all the time, i chose to blog NOW.
out of all the days, i chose to blog today.
like when i haven even finished my home econs which its freaking due is NOW.
i guess the world wont stop for me.
i just SO DO NOT feel the urgency! i feel like i'm drowning my time away.
all down the rubbish chute.
well, its just too late lah, too late to even try.
prepare to fail fail fail fail fail and FAIL. (:

2006-09-19T16:30:00.000+08:00

if you wanna take her as a replacement.
then by all means go ahead.
as long as you're happy, i dont have anything to say.
its the obvious, only the blind cant tell. (:

2006-09-13T21:54:00.000+08:00

i guess i just cant balance my life anymore.

2006-09-10T09:53:00.000+08:00

apparently there are four pple online now.
like WTFH man.
and tmr's gonna be the start of another round of hell.
oh god, i haven started on my homework yet.
everytime i wanna do, there's still tmr =D
now there's NO MORE tmr, i start to panick.
WOOHOOO, NICE JOB !
NOW YOU HAVE TO RUSH ALL YOUR WORK.
and so what have you revised during the holidays?
NTH. 3/3 here i come (:

yst! went to kendra's house for bbq. =D
finally saw baby!

-woke up on the wrong side of the bed-

2006-09-08T17:43:00.000+08:00

u should learn that my world does not revolve around urs.
and in fact, u shoulden even be bothered about it anymore.
cause after all, i'm no longer urs.
still friends ! (; cheer up alright !
feelings dont just come back like *THAT you get it?
i'm over and done with, you should too. =D

well, i think i owe you tons of apologies.
you know who you are alright.
it did hurt me, but i guess it hurt you even deeper.
i was such a fucking no use.
sighs, i'm sorry .
i didnt know what i do would make you so upset.
i told you, you're my BESTBEST FRIEND !
and u'll never be replaced by anyone else, dont you worry!
i shld have thought more abt how you'll feeel.
neglecting too many things that matters to you.
i'm too selfish, all the things i've done.
i will never find a replacement for you, its just impossible.
afterall, i dont think i'm a good friend, anymore.
do i still stand a place in your life? i hope i have.
cause you have mine.

maybe not coming online isnt such a bad thing you know.
sometimes, onlinesruff makes life much more complicated.
much more sorrows and questions and unhappiness.
but whatever, i'm online now so HA.
if you woulden go around reading pple's blog
you woulden know what's going on with their life.
and all those OIWURIOHEFEJBGE things you dont wanna hear/see.
and it does make you a happier person =D
oh wtfh am i talking about?

aha, i went for sailing today !
and had to carry the ropes home !FERHELFNEHGHORT!
its heavy and wet and and and heavy.
swear i would never never rick up/down a boat by myself ever again.
42ed and storm sailed today.
omg omg omg ! & i folded the sail back myself ! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT
=Dat least i'm happy with that.

baby i wanna let you know that you're the only one for me .
and i didnt see baby today ):

2006-09-05T17:20:00.000+08:00

i'm dead beat.

2006-09-03T22:42:00.000+08:00

a tired and hectic day ):
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARINA !

morning, went to bugis to meet mm !
and then bought the bikinis.
i know we walked here and there.
and and we were both walking like idiots ! =D

after that i needed to get things in pp.
so met nicole and arshu !
LIKE FINNALY IN A MILLION YEARS =DD
but then that charmain cant meet us cause its a SUNDAY ):
so stupid.
went into pp, and got karina's present and cake !
took cab and the taxi uncle was angry with me.
cause i made him
turn to madarin gardens to get things from baby.
then to charmain's house to get lighter.
then to karina's house.
sorry lahhh, not say i never pay right. asshole.
i bet you were surprised and happy ! HA(:

well, stayed awhile until they decided to go watch show.
suppose to watch little man ! budden all lazy walk to century.
so watched lovewrecked at tm.
its not nice except for one freaking part.
i was freezing in the cinema ): baby wasnt there ))):
came out and straight away went outside for warm air.

then then i went home.
i feel tired and everything's so SIGH today ):

i miss you baby,badly-

2006-09-01T22:35:00.000+08:00

went to b house today instead.
erh, suppose to study?
but not even a touch, righhhhhht.
MM WAS THERE TOO ! =D
i'm seriously addicted to tokyo drift song.
i think it's nice and annoying (:

reached home and ate again
seriously i feel like a fucking pig okay.
gonna so gain weight like !KABOOOM

wonder if you know, how they live in tokyo.
if you see me and you mean it
then you know you have to go
fast&furious ~drift drift drift~

-i love you more then words can say, i miss you every single day-

2006-09-01T11:30:00.000+08:00

mozilla was being an ass last night.
re started it like 35467687321 times.
so i gave up

teacher's day was alright.
miss chew is so fucking cute omg ! hahahahahhaha.
and the ariel's dance partner ! so small and so hot.
was practically walking around the whole school bare footed.
my shoe and socks was wet what.
than either then that, with no socks. =D

yesterday night was pretty much a hectic.
but i'm really really happy everythings back together again !
aha! i felt the gush of happiness rushing as you told me.
i wish you both happy forever !

today's gonna be a bore.
so much for the first day of holiday hurh.
staying at home with no fucking thing to do.
): its gonna be a sad sad day.
kill me and i shall have peace.

-i'll go anywhere in the world, as long as i'm with you baby-

2006-08-30T22:13:00.000+08:00

baby's the sweetest thing on earth !
but you shoulden have, cause now you're broke ):
and i shall buy you food from tmr onwards! =D

went b house today, didnt go sailing.
it was freaking raining.
so so i spend many many hours with baby today ! =D
reached home at like 9.30? omg lah.
went pp at 8 plus. and then homed !
i feel like not going home during september holidays.
anybody's house open ?

-i'll never wanna leave you baby & 'll never doubt you ever.-

2006-08-29T23:05:00.000+08:00

tonight, i wanna cry.

2006-08-29T21:21:00.000+08:00

i dont like to share.
i get upset when someone wants to take you away.
i hate it, cause i'm selfish bitch.
and because i love you&you love me ! =D

ahh`whatever

you know what? i seriously hates sheku i tell you.
she's so fucking annoying! she can just go die, seriously.
okay maybe i'm not serious , but yah =D
today's being such a bore.
school as boring as usual ):
then i went home bathed and went to find b.
&home again.

-you can trust this love baby, the honest truth-

2006-08-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

no going on msn tonight.
kendra&her <<3 & baby & zminMM is not going to as well.
hahhahs ! MIA from msn yeah. just changed my blog !
well, kinda =D there's summary but fuck i'm lazy.
so too bad =D i pass my art ! b3, not bad lah.
according to my laziness, f9 is more of what i deserve actually.
but who cares ! gods on my side now, only for now.

i feel stupid today. crying over such stupid thing.
but ah wells, i know i felt much better.
and thanks to crystal !
i know you poured your heart out today girl.
me too =D and i'll be there ! no worries.

maybe its jealousy, maybe its fear of losing you baby.
oh wells, at least everything's fine now. =D
once again the same old thing that's never gonna stop

I LOVE YOU MY BABY!
never never never gonna ever ever change<3 size="1">
): forced to take that out. nvm, i still love you as much !

2006-08-27T22:02:00.000+08:00

Baby, I can't see my worth living here on
God's green earth, you don't know what
you've done to me, I never thought
I'd need you desperately, it's kind
of sick how I'm stuck on you
but I don't care cause I'm needing you

and how I feel will remain the same remains the same
cause your're my baby, cause your my baby
listen and when the world starts to stress me out,
where I run it's to you without
a doubt you're the one who keeps me sane and I can't complain
you're like a
drug you relieve my pain

you're like the blood flowing through my vain,
keeps me alive and feeding my brain,
now this is how another human life could
have the power to take over mine cause your my baby

You know I want you badly , baby
And you know you feel the same way too
I'm the one to keep you happy, baby
Just let me be down with you
Baby-baby-baby-baby-baby

You are the one I see in my fantasies
When I'm dreamin
I'll be your everything
If you get down with me, I'll give you what you need
baby

Cuz we fit together like a hand in glove
Just to be with you is all I'm thinkin' of

from baby ! =D
to me me me !
baby's so sweeeeeet.

2006-08-27T14:55:00.000+08:00

Have I been blind?
For the first time in my life
I feel I've opened up
My eyes
Since you've arrived
Like an angel from the sky,
I'm on a spiritual high

So don't you ever go away
I could never face
Losing you
Would kill my faith
In a higher place

What kind of world
Would it be without you?
I couldn't breathe without you near
What kind of world
Would I see without you?
I can't dream without you here

Beautiful boy,
How on earth did I do something
Worth deserving you?
My better half
How I cherish through and through
Every part of you
I do

Loving you's made me whole
Now I belong,
I found my home
Promise me we'll always stay
The way we are today

I can't ever imagine
If this never had happened
Oh, I thank God everyday
Almost lost you forever,
But I always remember
That you're my saving grace

baby you.

2006-08-27T13:05:00.000+08:00

talk to b till two yesterday !
and she was like FALLING ASLEEP ! half dead i swear
ahahha ! she didnt even know what she was talking about.
& it was super funny. so nonsense & adorable at the same time.
i had to be the mean one again to hang up so that she'll go to sleep.
and not be so tired today, tell me i'm so damn nice please =D
baby was trying to annoy me !
by not answering me when i say BYE and GOODNIGHT.
it made me sad sad ): cause i have to hang her up when i cant bare to.
somemore when she's not answering me ! like guilty okay.
the feeling is like hanging up on someone on purpose. ~~so idiot.~~
and i did, it was so heartbreaking okay !
but nvm, i still love you as much ! =D
and today today ! i woke at eight thirty !

8.30am
called b, no one pick up ):
8.40am
called again, no one pick up again )):
8.50am
called another time, no one pick up again again ))):
9am
called LAST time, still no one pick up )))):

how sad right? i told you YOU you woulden pick up ! ):
and you lazy bum sleeping =D aha baby.
i'm gonna go swimming later ! =DDD

ps/i have a tan ! (:

the feeling of you being so far away isnt nice.
i hate this, i hate myself feeling like that.
you filling up my whole mind.
i'm going crazy baby, thinking bout you.
the way you smile, the way you hold me
just the way you are. I MISS YOU MY BABY !! )':
&i cant tell you how much i miss you
&i cant tell you how much i love you
&i cant tell you how much i need you
&i cant tell you how much i want you

);damnit.

baby i'm telling you i do !
and b, you know why you've been feeling so tired.
even though you just woke up?
i've just figured it out
cause you've been running through my head a million times
throughout the whole damn night.
god, i miss you so fucking much.

-sweetheart, would you come nearer? -

2006-08-26T19:34:00.000+08:00

today went to www to celebrate eunyse birthday!
it was love lah, although everybody was late late late.
some crazy laughthers and rides =D
suppose to go town with them! but it was really late.
and i had to be home early cause of my brother, damn.
but when i'm home, NO FUCKING ONE IS HOME!
i feel so weird going home so early today man! just so damn weird.
i feel lifeless ): its a saturday night for goodness sake.
& i wanna go for krunk !

baby, you're the sweetest thing on earth. =D

- And I don't know what I'd do if I would lose your touch-