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sandra house today (:
if was fun lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

mahjong-ed and laughed at ariane !
she's damn dumb i swear.
but cant blame her, she dont know how to play.
and and she threw out a mouse??? :D
and many many other <3 !
eps MON MON IS SO CUTE !
i swear he is damn cute.
and i have a temptation to kidnap him and bring him home!
zoo zoo zooo zooooooo !
finally got someone who wants to go zoo as badly as me !
cant wait cant wait man !!

so many things gonna happen.
3rd; results and shopping !
4th; packing !
5th; omg ! good bye ! (: SHANGHAI.

only 5 more days till china.
goodbye to all the bitches.
i feel so happy, leaving all those behind.
gonna have fun ! with baby and mm !
and lailin ! (: and all.
yessssssssssssss we fucking will.

things i'm looking forward to.
-shanghai !
-times with baby !!!!
-packing !
-shopping !!!
-and more shopping !
-work ! i wanna i wanna !
-ZOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!

oh please oh please god.
let all this happen (:

-oh baby we're meant to be-

there's tstill this little love i feel.
so please, dont extinguish it.
although i know, i coulden treat you like i use to do.
but this part in me, i wish to hate you.
i dont want to, but... i want to.
just dont let me, please.
cause, friends dont do, what you do.
and all of all, i know i still treat you as a friend.
god, what am i talking about.....

baby.
its times when i'm down, and i'll think of you.
its times when i'm lost, you'll help me find myself.
its times when i'm sad, you'll pull me up again.
its times when i'm helpless, i know you're always there.
its times when i'm sick, and i know you care.
its times when i dont feel secure, you assured me over and over again.
its times when i'm crying, you wipe those tears away.
its times when everything seems wrong, you turn them right.
its times when i'm having fun, i'll want you to be there.
its times when i'm smiling, and its all because of you.
its times when i'm happy, i know you're the reason why.
its times when the night is cold, i can only think of you.
its times when i'm feeling lonely,u're the only one i wish to be here with me.
its times like these & many many more
that makes you ; the one for me.
i love you baby !

-eternity is our promise-

stuck at home
with an eye that looks like it is bleeding from the inside.
damn, its horrible ): infected.
so much thanks to my sister who pass it to me.
but but, the good thing is.
her eyes swell ! and mine, didnt, phew.
or i'll look like a fucking toad, which she does now.

thousands of faces i miss):
especially baby's.
suddenly, i miss school!
i wanna go back !!
god! take this pain away!

i've never felt so lost before ):

you know when there's times you feel like you've lost yourself?
when you feel that you need to go-somewhere/baby's arms.
yes, thats how i've been feeling like the whole day.
cause baby's not here! and i'm missing tons of pple.
especially baby.
damn

fuck this, fuck life.
i wanna go there, i wanna be in your arms baby.
you know how damn much i'm missing you?
it may seem all so stupid and ... i dont know.
but just these few hours, i cant stand it anymore.
i cant even tell you how much i miss you right now.
its so damn much, no words can express it.
i'm lost without you.
i'm nobody without your love.
without your hugs and kisses, there's nth left in me.
JUST THESE MANY HOURS! i cant live without you baby.

baby, you're the one i need to continue on living.
i need your love and attentions.
i know, times when i seemed selfish and just created problems.
tears that are shed, going thru them over and over again.
you assuring and being patience with me.
even if it was the same old thing that we've been thru before.
that's because i cannot afford to lose you baby, i cant.
i woulden know what to do, if you ever stop loving me.
if you ever stop giving me with your hugs and kisses.
filling me up with your love every single day.
you're my life, my everything.

i know this love is for real.
baby, you showed me whats true love.
you showed me how much i'll give to just be with you.

eternity is our promise.

there's no more u and i, its us.
you're the first and will be the LAST one i'll ever love so deeply.
this i promise you baby.
cause nobody can ever take yor place.
believe me when i say i'll love you forever.
"together we can overcome everything"
i know i'll never worry about you leaving me again.
we feels the same cause now, our hearts is one <3>
if you ask me would i cry if you die
i would say no
cause if you die
i'll die with you <3

ps/ dont say i never mention; I MISS CRYSTAL TAY BESTIE ! (:

went parkway today !
i have no idea why, but i do sorta miss parkway.
with baby and mm (:
walked and walked, and it starts to be boring AGAIN.
oh man, ate and walk and walk and walk!

baby, i'm so sure about this love.
these few days are so love, i wish i could have stayed by you and
never never ever needed to go home.
to see you like that is fucking heart pain ):
i know, it may sound stupid.
but i do ): its so bad.
seeing you being so sick and ... sick... isnt nice.
); its just so, heart pain....
i really hope baby's gonna be well soon !
there's nth i woulden do, to keep you safe and loved.
wo ai ni (:

two days not going to school.
and i guess the third tmr ! (:

these two days are so <3
i'll never give the times with you
up in exchange for anything else in the world baby. (:
spend my two days with baby baby baby the most.
though now baby is falling sick ):
i hope baby will get well soon ! YOU BETTER LISTEN TO ME AND DRINK WATER.
sighs, i really hope you're okay b.

no more ' uncle cheekopek' or i'll get angry(scared) (:
hahahahs, sorry baby, for making you feel so.....
bad/unloved/n WHATEVER YOU FELT LIKE THEN?
but i was really scared lah, i dont know why also.
maybe.... maybe my last life, i kena killed by some uncle cheekopek.
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS, so rubbish,whatever
more more photos! i know you want lah, dont act like as if so MIAN ZIANG.
and and i kneed(need) you !
baby we're getting more and more nonsense/LOVEEEEEEEE.
thats the way its suppose to be.
just laughters and happiness with each other around.
no more worries, no more tears, no more bad days.
most importantly, mo more feelings of insecurities.
cause now, you and i belong together , as one.
right right right? no one's gonna tear us apart.
NO ONE CAN (:
only pple whose mentality are so weak they do not
understand the meaning of being a complete slut/bitch/whore.
they will try to. but but, they just dont get it in their thick heads that they cant.

-its a promise that will stay baby-

i read it over and over again
till i realised that actually
it isnt worth to give this friendship up because of her.
that fucking bitch is the whole cause of all these happening.
isnt she? yes.
why dont she get it, all that she's doing.
all those hypocritic acts, its coming to sense.
she shld die for all i care, hate me for all i care.
although i know she already does.(:
all this shits isnt worth it.
all these problems and hatred for each other is WHAT SHE WANTS!
her happiness is found in others misery.
know all the bungs, be the most popular one around them.
yeah, burnt bitch. cant you see? we're all laughing at you.
pathetic one.

pple do make mistakes.
my mistake to tell you.
your mistake to tell her.
it's time to learn from them(:

let it all go, it's back again.
i need to apologise too.
the one year back plans, i crash them.
i'm sorry you guys, though you keep saying its okay.
i know it isnt. just have fun over there okay?
i'm sorry i didnt attend your party, i should have.
i didnt know, it actually matters so much to you.

if you think using all those under hand methods to get what you want
you will, you're fucking wrong.
if its not yours, leave it !
stop all this nonsense shit, just stop it.
if you're not tired, think about the pple arnd you ! they are !
so why cant you just get it in your fucking brain to STOP !
yes S-T-O-P !
destroying me OR this relationship isnt as easy as you think its gonna be.
no no player, its game over for you.

i love you baby ! happy fifth month baby.
and you promise that in 170510 we're still gonna be the us!
right right? (: yes.
and you said nth can take you away, that you promise!
<3 no breaking promises !!

yesterday went to find baby.
i just hope i made your day love (:

today!
sunday with so much lesser haze polluting the air!
there's nth to blog about. but there's art to do!
and what, i haven even started on it yet man.

promise to not quarrel over stupid things.
i wanna/am going to be the first to say sorry!
ha, we'll see baby.
so much promises, that tie us closer together.
keep by them will you? i know i will love.

it's just so amazing how you can speak right to my heart
without saying a word, you can light up the dark
try as I may I can never explain that
what I hear when you don't say a thing
the smile on your face lets me know that you need me
there's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
the touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
all day long I can hear people talking out loud
but when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
try as they may they could never define
what's been said between your heart and mine <3


i wanna be the one that can bring back the smile across your face baby.
to extinguish that side of you that is always making you cry.
baby, that's what i wanna do. to be there for you, forever.

-this is forever 170506(:

p.s/ i miss you like a zillion ! its making me lose my mind baby.

EXAMS ARE FINNALY FKING OVER !

aha, its such a bliss that when the rest of
the other students starts to stress and WE so relaxed!
bad point is, we stress earlier. (:

went movied after maths paper two.
watched stay alive!
its kinda scary lah. annoying part is
when the music comes and then NTH happens.
like wtfh man! ): make me scared for NTH.
after that, we skipped cinemas!
went into the world trade center one.
haha, wanted to go the john tucker must die.
but then the man was going backwards towards the door.
so me & baby hurry hurry run down the stairs!

went century(Sp?) for catching! FU-NNNNNNNNNN.
so exciting exciting! although me and baby sat down at the foodcourt.
drinking bundung then went we see them walk pass, we hide down.
damn funny man i swear!
after that, all go home ):

went to baby house and sat and stared at the moon.
one moment its there, the next gone.
i mean like, it seems so sad when it dissapeared.
i'm sorry baby, i made you worried again.
but i'm fine, just a little tired cause of my eyes.
well, i guess its over, doesnt matter anymore right.
(: i just need you to be happy.
cause when you smile, i'm happy.
when you frown, that smile just cannot appear.
no going back to the person you USED to be.
NO MORE, CAUSE I'M RIGHT HERE FOR YOU.<3 style="font-style: italic;">everlasting baby, us. i love you.

-There`s nothing else I want more than to feel this way-

maths paper one was one hell of a shit.
i might as well pass up a empty script ! ):

went to east coast after that.
amazing right? tmr maths paper 2.
today already enjoy! hahahhahah!
who cares lah okay, 3/3 door open big big.

after that mm and me went to b house.
so hazy and foggy today! WTFH MAN!
stupid farmers burn burn burn.
later burn the whole indonesia down ah.
at six szemin left.

i wanted to leave at six forty five.
baby was so lethargic and lifeless.
so i wanted to leave and baby went even more moody):
then decided that i should really stay.
went walking round and into mandarin again. sat in the park.
just sat down at teh bench, so much love <3
baby was singing to me ! AHA (:
it made my day, lifted my mood.
and make my world seems oh so beautiful and perfect.
its always perfect with baby around with me.

baby, i'm sorry i wanted to leave.
i know its not me, i promise i'll tell you to be hapy.
instead of giving up straight away and thinking i shld leave.
as long as baby is happy, then i'll be.
i just love the way you talk, smile and every lil thing abt you.
whenever you's arnd
i know i can stare at you for hours thinking bout nth but you.
and baby sad to say but you know sometimes
when you are talking to me.
and i'm staring at you, i may not be paying
attention to whatever you're saying.
because i'm just thinking of how much you mean to me
and how much i love you.
i just need to see that love in your eyes
to brighthen my whole wide world.
you're like that star at night.
whenever it may seem dark and insecure.
baby you make sure i see the light and never fail
to bring that smile back across my face the way you always do.
even the slightest thing you do, the slightest thing you say
can change my whole day baby, no matter up or down.
that's how much you mean to me.
i know no one in this living earth can do the same you do.
cause no one matters more then you do baby.
whenever i'm in a bad mood or just feeling emo.
i just need your hug and embrace with love.
and i know everything would be just fine.
your mood affects mine, our hearts connects as one.
if you're asking do i love you this much baby, i do.

i want this to stay forever, tell me it will.

i guess after all i'm still gonna fail my lit ):

went home straight away after school
i really didnt know why my mood was that bad.
was home, and feeling fucked moody.
then you said " i have a present for you, but i left it at the eleven floor."
so i went up and thought it was something you wrote the other day.
it was baby standing right there ! i was so happy, everything changed.
and my mood went from -100 to +100000000! (:
i was so shocked, but yet something in me wanted to cry.
cause you were to appear when i needed someone most.
it was... so loved <3.

went yoshi after that to meet angela and
doof and pris and szemin and crystal.
in the end, left me b angela pris and szemin.
we was at the jolli bean there! SAW COWDUNG!
hahah, that hot pink shirt, no clothes anymore, go shopping lahhh.
she inderictly said i got fatter okay ! okay lah, i admit i did.
but dont need be so mean right~ i feel fat again, and i know i am lah okay.
then nvm, after that saw WTFH HICHEW!
b was like; OH HICHEW EVEN MORE DIE !
*turn away and panick.
then me and kendra was like ; OH NO DIE RUN!
*all run and tries to hide but i think we bang alot of pple!
make it even more obvious man!
so we run run run ALL THE WAY to foodcourt.
b was saying, later hichew wanna go cold storage ahhh.
then then when we were outside cold storage....
*OH NO HICHEW AGAIN!! everybody rann like mad dog, except for kendra!
AHHA, i was like kendra run run run ! then she OHOHOH and run!
SO FUNNY MAN !
like play police and thief with teacher in pp like that.
filled my day with laughters once again (:

mei nu&shuai ge;
zavier wong junhao! zanyer wong pingrui!
szemin as the god-mama & nieghbour right!
BABY; plus take big! (: marry me =D

....live happily ever after.

i dont see the point of WHY pple wanna suck up so much.
as a matter of fact, WHY?
to both seniors -and juniors- there's too much sucking up.
okay, you may say its being sociable and all.
but noooooooooooooooooo, its just NOT.
oh PLEASE lah, pple have eyes and ears.
its call sucking up! SUCK SUCK SUCK. shuuppppp~
i'm not pin pointing no one here, *erhem *ERHEM.
oh i sound so damn bloody mean, but WHO THE FUCKING HELL CARES.(:

having a date with the books i guess. AHA.

-take everything i own, just leave my love alone-