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PAUL TWOHILL

he is like so , HOT.
hothothot ; he burns. xD
he dont get in, i'm so gonna write 216246544 letters
to mr SR nathan to complaint . AND DEMAND.
dont you agree he is freaking hot?
the rest of singapore idol contestants; can go jumping down the building already.
go on ; fall in love with him , i know you would.

i cant believe that the police are finding me?
well, maybe not. but is she spills it out.
everyone's dead. WHY GO FIND HER AGAIN.
no brains, already know we hoot her untill damn jialat alraedy.
go hoot her again. see larh, she go hospital already then you all happy.
tsktsktsk, just hope that everyone will get away with it lah.
but i doubt so, its so impossible, HOSPITAL LEH.
if she got any internal injuries.
WE ALL MATI ~

-son parce que je t'aime.-

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing, 'cause i'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go

-dont wanna look back, afraid to know the future, just live for the moment.-

i cant typre properly, my arms are hurting me .
very hurting, its the first time its so DEAD ?
i cant help but think, maybe i should stop thinking.
and then MAYBE things would go the right way.
hais, i just dont know what else to do.
i know many pple are dissapointed in me.
what i have done, but i have no other choice to vent it out.
i'm numb to things , cause i'm really tired of finding out the truth.
the truth just bring tears, i dont wanna hear them.
but yet, i wanna know. whats true and whats decieving me.
life is full of shit, i just dont know what to believe and what not to believe anymore.
the fake truth of the true lies? i need you.
but if its true, i rather you go.
i just need to see you happy, then i'll be.
i dont wanna have you when your soul and heart is still with her.
i know i cant expect the 100% you, but i'm really sick and tired of lies.
maybe its me, its me tat is thinking too much.
but dont tell me i've been deceived blindly by her friends and mine?
it's driving me crazy.

-warnings i dont know how to avoid-

had fire drill today.
lanjiao, make us sit in the sun for fark.
then assembly got this band came.
ronin or something like that, was alright larh.
after school went kbox.
i think i seriously do not like the "manager" or something there.

- i dont wanna ever let you go -

yesterday was island rush rush rush.

in the morning woke up at six and met the rest on mrt at 7+ near 8.
so we were early for the briefing.
lsdfhwlrkfgwefgwef, waited for the rest of the teams and briefing sarted at 9.30.
open the first clue and its like we need help ?
called eunyse mum and ask her.
yeah !! got it and we ran off.
its seriously exciting, just like amzing race hur.
first stop was pasir ris.
and we had to pull the big heavy thang up the hill ?
lols, kinda fast lah. go the seond clue.
"pasir ris town, your friendly neighbourhood. talking prawns, catch me if you can"
and me san and zen got on the cab first.
stupid driver, act so clever.
like wth alrh, in the end we end up the wrong place.
and me and san seperate from ken.
we then hitch a ride from a STRANGER?
like wth man. i cant believe it.
haha, kendra reached us.
and soon, four prawns were caught. nest clue given.
"woodbridge-bridge+land+s. block 650 , admiral. bushes and snails"
okay.from pasir ris all the way to woodlands?
its abit the far. reached woodlands.
took some time to find the place.
did the dumb jenga thing, so uerfweifwkjfb hard larh.
finished and went on.
gone to this house in woodlands and the task is to finish this hot and spicy soup.
it was HOT and spicy.
only two can drink it with pathetic small spoons.
and me and shaz was the one?
we almost died, or isit just me ? HAHAS.
it was one hell of a BIG BOWL okay.
got our next clue and was on our way when the called and ask us to stop playing.
like WTF, we want to finish the game !! grhhhhh ~
forget it, we're not going back hur.

decided to go ps.
me eunyse, mm, boyfriend and shaz.
went the arcade , but didnt see them playing?
cause i went to find the toilet and ended up all the way in ps itself.
like wth man, theres no toilet in mrts.
then saw junqing while going into the toilet.
went to eat yoshi, forever~
then we me and shaz was like CRAZY abnd HIGH.
and then was EUNYSE turn.
like wth ? totally crazy can.
first was szemin sitting alone in the middle of the entrance of ps.
she looks like she's a loner who is crazy.
then the gotcha thing ?
eunyse and shazlin was walking out of the door.
i went up to them and say BOOO !!
eunyse screams and freak out like no bodys buisness.
then i said " you're on gotcha !! look theres the camera, smile and wave !"
and shazlin will smile and wave to somewhere i pointed?
LOLS, was uper retarded.
sat at the staircase there and started to disturb alot.
first was like err, "oh my gawd ! LOOK !! and points to somewhere above"
got pple look okay !! like wth ? typical singaporeans.
last last last.
me and shzlin walk in the crowd.
with a map, then suddenly we sat down.
and i said VERY loudly :
OH MY GAWD !! my map tear !!! TEAR !!!!!
and starts to act like one crzy bitch.
shz then said:
it sokay !! relax, we'll find out way home okay !!
its like super farneyyyyy ~
eunsye then left us to meet hwe jq.
and then we sat in the middle of no where and startd to lie down on the floor.
seriously, i think we disgraced ourselves alot yesterday.
heng, never bumb into any friends hur.

-anything for you baby-

i'm dead tired.
seriously seriously , i want to blog.
but i cant, because all my brains telling me is to SLEEP.
all i can say is , today was hell alot of fun, and disgracement.
to be continued tmr ~

hurhur, you're making me go crazy worrying for you.
i dont know why you're thinking like that.
seriously, making everything seems like your fault isnt helping.
suicide is stupid, never think of that even.
you're just making me crazy.
and never lie to me again okay, i really hate to hear lies.
baby, i love you too.
you better STOP THINKING SO MUCH I TELL YOU.

-if you ever need me, i'll be there for you, no matter what-

went sandra house after school.
was suppose to be scared, cause SIX is a scary show.
huhur, its just too bright.
and i'm feeling very tired.
i almost fell asleep when this GHOST just came to the tv.
walao, shock me untill i make this stupid sound.
tsk, so paiseh larh.
they ate macs, i ate apple pie.
i was hungry but when i eat, i'll feel super vomity
whats wrong with me? i miss food.

-whatever i do, i think of you-

i'm having the first meal of the dya now.
and its veges. i fell like vomiting after eating them.
whats wrong with me.
god, i hate this VOMITING feeling.

- now till forever, its you and me-

wow, let me say.

yesterday :
it was like a very healthy say ? for me ken pris and eunyse.
woke up at eight and called eunyse.
i thought we was the only two who woke up ?
cause they all LARH, never pick up phone, tsk.
then then met at taonan bus stop at 9.30.
was first to reach !! break record can.
haha, then ken and pris. bothe come same time diff direction.
last eunsye reached. so slow, aiyo.
then then we went to CYCLE.
haha, all the way up to safra that side, more than 7 km ?
thats what kendra said larhs.
was freaking tiring okay.
after that went pp to eat lunch.
ate porridge, healthy not you tell me.
eunyse decided to go meet father.
then me and ken and pris went to jades house.
went in and watched movie the whole time ?
me and horror movies. screams and more screams.
haha, i like shutter and i DONT like cello.
cello can suck me ass and die, not even scary at ALL.
so boring somemore, i dont get the screams.
shutter hohoho, i was still scared okay, even though i know whats gonna happen.
SCREAMS and GRABS. haha, i grab pple when i'm scared.
then they'll be shocked too. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahs.
some things happen and yah, was kinda thinking alot .
kendra : dont think so smuch kay, hope you can get over it. YOU rock man, you made me cry.
anyways kendra, dont worry , i'll be there for you !!
then yah bla bla bla .
happenings and talks.
and decided to head home.
cabbed with sandra and ting ting.
P.S. i wanna watch THE NUN. :D

today:
in the morning woke up at 7?
bathed and tried to call ken. BUT her phone is freaging off.
i guess its her reception. grrrh.
then bout 10+ went her house.
and finding pple to go out is THAT hard eh.
went bugis with shopping queen, hoho.
then decided to go back kendra house.
BUT in the end , went angela house.
pris came too, for how long? 10 FREAKING MINUTES.
how great you are.
went tamPENIS cause we were too damn bored.
went eat eat , shop shop, walk walk.
then NEO PRINTS as usual ar.
was super funny, the slogans.
cabbed home as usual.
i shld stop taking the bloody 240 transport.
P.S. i seriously didnt know you would do this, you showed me the other side of you today.
i'm dissapointed, really dissapointed.

-i've never miss anyone more in my life then i miss you now-

back to blogging. HOW LONG HAVE I NOT BLOGGED?
my god, i think its just a few days.haha, i'm being dramatic.
yesterday went to meet sammie, angela and ting ting.

oh my gawd, my heels almost killed me yesterday.
THANKS to my sister who bought my SHOES and SLIPPERS to genting.
dang her, i'm so gonna kill her when she comes back.
met at city hall and then walked to penisula ? i think thats how you spell it.
i THINK. me and sammie could just DIE i tell you.
ting ting and angela SHOP so long ~ like in this shop which me and sammie thinks its voodoo cursed or something. the shop just have a FUNNY feeling.
so we went out and when into 3 shops looking for something to buy and kill time.
BUT, its either VERY expensive and nice or NTH to buy at all.
i declare- i DONT like pen neh neh.

REVENGE TIME.
yeah ! we went bugis. bugis was like so crowded yesterday.
super duper crowded. bought a slipper that saved my life.
if i didnt find that slipper i would have taken off my heels and walked bare footed.
well, i actually did in that pen neh neh place. (: but everybody was staring like i was some crazy mama or something so i decided to look normal again. HAA.
sammie and me went in like ALOT of shops. haha !!
see how we felt? TING AND ANGELA shld feel it too.
well, i think we're worst though. MORE FUSSY.
and SAMMIE is the worst. she takes like FOREVER to choose ONE pair of earings.
walk walk then when yoshi with that -oh-so-hungry- sammie.
keep whining and whining. ^#*$&_$&amp;(#$^&*#$
haha, she ate and i thank god that whining stopped.
angela , you do not have a talent in convincing pple.
FUCKING SHUT UP YOU FUCKER. and i'm a fucker who lives in bedok reservoir, THANKS.
haha, was fuck day yesterday. me and angela was like scolding each other non stop.
with the word FUCK, funny can !!
oh yah, anyways, that angela ah . trying to convince me to go ting house.
so think i will?
I DONT WANT ONE LORH ! idiot, shut up.
i know i'm kind t go okay.
and just because THAT sammie helped them and siad a pretty good reason.
I HAVE THE LATEST CURFEW. damn it fytw7rfgsdfbgsit.
so sammie went home and i had to go ting ting house.

horror movieD and her house.
angela is such a scardy cat , so is ting.
well i'm one too larh. HAHA !!
but angela is worst. she's squashing me the whole movie.
and that results in me bieng SQUASHED for entire 2 hours?

i need to APOLOGOISE to ting that
- i screamed at your ear cause i was using your shoulder as a SHIELD.
-pulling your shirt so hard cause i was scared. ((:
-squashing you as ANGELA IS SQUASHING ME. and that carn be helped.
and thank you for
- the wonderful pizza that caused you $21.90
-the cab fare from white sand to your house which caused $4.50? or is it $3?
i carn remmeber.
-your shirt that i pulled.HAHA .
-and and the beautiful ribena.
-last but not least, i saw your brother half naked. and he quickly ran into the toilet.
HAHAHAHH !!

then i cabbed home, i was thinking about the part when
the woman appeared at the car window and i was so scared okay.
i didnt dare look out the window. HOHO.
lastly , i would never go that pen neh neh place ever , RIGHT SAMMIE ?

- grab my arms around your hands, i need you here-

guess everything would be alright?
guess, i guess so.
shopping today !!
was so happy that i bought what i wanted.
haha, and gold gold gold stuff. weeYOUwee~
i want more shoppings ~ kendra lets go, you , ths shopping queen. (:
say this :
ONE- i'm soooo freakkkkkkkkkkkkkkin pissed. i'm gonna have a BF.
TWO- a what?
THREE- oh, you're so dead, shes gonna have a BF, a bitch fit.
TWO- oh NO , dont have a bitch fit.
ONE- i wanna see your supervisor. NO, i'm gonna write a letter.
TWO- OH NO NO !! dont write a letter.
ONE- *takes pen and paper and starts writing*
dear mr fkjne kjlvvjtn , i am a white women from america. C:

-this is just so hiralious.

P.S - i seriously hates to be on a HOT bus and a person with BO infront of you with his ARMPIT.
bloody fucker who have no common sense to buy a deodorant spray, i hope you die of suffocation smelling your own BO for 6147064753457 years. THANKS armpit hair guy, had fun with your BO.

SPECIAL DEDICATIONS:

crystal:
hey girl, thanks for everything.
i really dont know who i'll be without you today.
helped me in every single way.
whenevr i feel insecure about things, you're always there.
listening to my crap for hours.
always telling me the right way to life.
helping me in every single way you can.
thanks alot, love you lovely.

angela:
angelayys, thanks for making me so retarded.
thanks ar. cheering me up whenever i'm down.
making me laugh because you laugh.
and all the talks and all, to tell me what i shld and shld not do.
and and being there for me.
telling me that its alright.
thanks for everything. loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ya.

doof:
my twin, eh, you shld know how i feel the most.
cause i'm you twin . and twins are telepathic.
or at least i think.
well, thanks for being there for me.
thanks for standing up for me .-well sometimes-
and thanks for standing by my side when i needed someone the most.
thanks twin, love love you.

ms tan :
ms tan, thanks for the advices.
eventhough i dont think its that easy to accomplish.
but i'd always kept that in mind.
really needed the talks and you were there to listen and help.
i'm sorry if you think its too whatever you call that.
but yah, still, thanks alot.
love you stead. (:

it may seem abit de random, but yah.
just felt that i shld start to thank them.
by standing by me all this while.
and with all their love, i'm sure i'll be able to survive this wave.
(: i'm sure i will.

seriously, i feel like breaking down.
i need acceptance.

i need to accept the fact that many has known about it.
face it, i cant erase their memory.
i need to accept that you are starting to hate me.
i cant do anything bout it till the day this thing is over.
i need to accept that what i did was wrong.
i shoulden have fallen for you , but it cant be helped.
i need to accept that now, what i hope and wishes,
is that everything would go back to normal soon.
i need to accept that i shoulden have told you the truth.
but the only thing i can do now is , regret.

accept that my life is now, screwd

-i guess this is how you say goodbye-

had maths paper two today.
was like okay larh, its hard, but not all the qns are hard.
dreamt that i got 14/40 for my paper one.
so stupid.
weird? yes, i could sense the "dao pi"
its just there.

-i really dont know what you're thinking-

i feel so weird now.
this thing shoulden have even happen at all.
i shlouden have told you the truth.
you shoulden have even ask.

if only i could turn back time.
i would say its some else.
i would , because now i know.
i will feel weird around you, and you too will feel weird around me.
this friendship is trashed.
it will just not be the same no more

-you just dont feel the same way i feel for you.-

SALUTE TO CHARM

had lit today, i'm so gonna fail.
i was writing, but didnt know what i was writing about.
beautiful. then pple decided to go to the wake.
but i cant , i promise to meet sharm already.
so yah, in the end, go pp with kenken.
ate MACS again, damn it, so fattening .
then then eunyse crystal and pris came.
went to buy tamagotchi.
so cute larh can. crystal name crist or something then mine bodoh
eunyse qing and pris smart then kenken donno name what.
so farny, out of all, i think mine is the only girl ?
BAH, after that went to celebrate charm bday.


FUN FUN FUN.
runs, cake smashesd, scoldings and laughings, OH and the food fight in macs.
weird but bloody farny. food fight with strangers? WEIRD~
then decided to go home.
homed :D

-i feel empty without you today too.-

omg omg, can you believe it?
this is the first time i understood my maths paper.
haaaah, anyways, history was screwed.
it was so bloody hard can, and and i only knew the short answer ?
the rest all bunch of nonsense, i'm so gonna fail.
OH, you know what?
halfway while doing my history, i heard a "PONG" sound.
coming from my right, it was very loud okay.
i turn i saw deserie the head bang on the table.
apparently, she fell aslept and hand slipped of AND bang her head?
SMART deserie SMART. :D

-you're so far away now-